


At last pictures been uploaded! The times that I when to club. Oops! Well it took me sometime for the pictures to upload because of someone. Woot woot~ Peace Azura. You know its you, so don't deny ok? Alright right now, I'm happy schooling at ITE CCK but I'm still not comfortable with the people there. I don't know how many FCUKING times I have to repeat that SOME of the guys are still immature. If that part is put aside, I actually like the school. With new facilities around. So yeah. I miss Faz a.k.a Zac cause that bloody idiot never come to school today. She told me she has high fever and stuff. Well get well soon alright! See you on Mon. Aisah on the other hand came to school but halfway she went and meet her hubby since her hubby didn't come to school.
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Actually I'm quite concern with Aisah as I'm scared if she will ditched us. Cause slowly and truthfully speaking, you are. I don't wish to said it here, but my heart can't stop my hands from typing. I understand that she just experience her 1st love. But then you can't be always be with her hubby. Don't you want to spent time with your friends too? Like you always advice on me, don't put too high hopes on the guy, cause you'll get hurt sooner or later. But you're doing it. You've changed Aisah you really did. But not because of your attitude, but you're slowly fading. You know I keep thinking, whether I should type this or not, thinking if you had the wrong impression of me. I know how much you love your hubby. And Your hubby loves you alot too. But, sometimes, in a relationship, give a gap. Leave some space to breathe! Even your hubby spend times with his friends too. Try to make it balance you know. You spend time with your hubby at the same time you spend time with us. I miss the times, we laugh together, the times we gossip together in a group. We don't feel the same without you. Just stop denying that you're still there with us. I'm sorry if it hurts if you're reading this but you're not there in our conversation most of the time. You keep yourself shut. And I miss you...

Moving on to my little brother. Most of the people here knows how much I love him, cherish him, treated him, pampered him and all those bullshit and stuff. So right now, I think its too damn much already cause he's slowly stepping onto my head without realising anything. I'm heartbroken with his attitude and I just don't know what to do. Now the thing is, I've helped him before by using my name for his Starhub bill. He promised me to pay every single month since he got the job. 1st month, the letter came, I ask him to pay, he told me he will. 3 weeks after that, I ask him again, he didn't pay up. Till now, the bill is rising! Worst still, the other day he lost his phone with that bloody sim card line he's using! I told him, to cut off the line before anyone use it. He told me he cut off. But this time I don't trust him, I wanted to call, but trying to find the right n.o to dial and check.
Now, I got a warning letter from Starhub asking to pay the bills. This time, the letter I keep as dad told me too. Oh yeah, dad saw the letters first and ask me. At first I was reluctant to tell, but in the end I share it with dad. I just couldn't take it anymore. I just feel like I've been stabbed. Seriously I thought he is my only hope. But I guess none of my siblings I could trust nor share my problems. I rather keep quiet and do my own things. Seriously, he have let me down in such a way I could breakdown. He treat this so slowly and so relax like as if that bill was never meant about him. I told dad that I'm not going to pay the bill then dad replied
"Who ask you to pay. Let him pay. Till when you're going to pampered him?"
I told dad that I'm not gonna pay even if it takes me to go to jail or what so ever. If he really wants me to go to jail, then go ahead. It shows me that he's been using me from the start. Seriously what such dilemma I had this week. FML.
Labels: Boncz be my guardian angel and guide me through this SHIT.