Boom Clap, Boom Dee Clap!
So I'm sitting here thinking what am I to do with all this nonsensical, stupid, idiotic feelings that I'm feeling right now. The confusion that is running in my head is driving me nuts... Trying to find ways to get out from this matter. Nowadays, I feel kinda bad for Baba! He is really trying hard to impress me in whatever he do. The other day, after picking me up from school, he try to adjust his chair or something and I on the other hand, felt really pity for him! I almost cried.. I told him this...
"You really trying hard huh.."
Then he reply me this...
"Ma asl seh dgn you? Don't make me cry!" Its like he knows that I'm saying it sincerely..
That day was my emotional day for me and Baba. Then suddenly, I hugged him!
I can see that he is really changing for me! He told me that he cherish me very much! And if can, he don't want to leave me. Everyday he will pick me up from school and send me back home. I really feel bad and at the same time felt appreciated. Then the other day... We fought! We broke off. At that moment I'm like going to let him off just like that! I share this problem with Helmi, Didi, Adelyn and Faz about this breaking up. They told me not to let him go just like that cause me and Baba, we're in relationship like for 2 years! And its fucking waste to let him go just like that..
But at the same time he make piss about that FUCKING girl!!!! She is like my another ME! (Its ok if you guys don't understand!) And to hate my another Me is just freaking WEIRD is the same like I hate myself! That's just sound so wrong! I know that I'm ugly and irritating but I'm just freaking piss when she's around! Even now Baba keep this Red pillow inside the van! Then suddenly, she gave the WHITE one!!!! WTH! It makes me even piss off!!!! I know that I have alot of friends than you do and I don't mind if you make other girlfriends or what so ever! But PLZZZZ!!!! Not HER!!!!!!! we're already fought about this before. And you want to make another problem! Haish! I can't say anything! Just make sure that she is not taking my place! Cause if she do.......... iTS THE END OF US!Labels: I may be Heartless but I'm patient~ Don't take it for GRANTED~~
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