Aisah
Yeah.. Im back! I'm just not active at blog like I used to. I just got better thinks to do! So many things have happened in life without me realising! Aisah and Azura told me that I've changed alot as in the better! Thanks to Aisah! Whenever I read her blog, I feel like crying. Maybe its her songs or is it maybe the things she type at her blog which a lot of people intend to read her blog. I just see her as someone special in my heart.. Like a role model I should say. People should look up to her and treat her with more respect! Sometimes when I think back what I've done in the past, is totally cruel and YES I'VE CHANGED PEOPLE!! HUMANS MAKES MISTAKES BUT I BELIEVE IN 2ND CHANCES!! Its not the end of the world. Some people just can't take the blame and just run away from reality. I've been there, done that! But seriously, your problems will not be solve yet get worser every single day. With the thoughts in your head, with the feeling of guilt in your heart. EVERYTHING! But slowly, I'm changing to be a better person.
My bestie!
So the other day, I had a fight with boifee. Cause he caught me lying about me chatting and web caming with bestie. Well to him I did a big sin to him. But to me, I'm just being myself.. He gave me a long message early in the morning of Valentines Day... I don't know how he get to know about it but he ask me to forget about bestie. And ask me to choose between him and bestie. Obviously I choose boifee! The reason I didn't tell boifee is because I already know the answer which is a "NO!" I don't know how many times that I've told him that I love him deep down in my heart but he never listens to that part.. He only listen whereby that I've committed a crime. That's all! 
My Baby!!
" Baby, I know sometimes you are browsing at my blog.. If you happened to read this, I LOVE YOU!! But the truth is, I CARED for BESTIE!! Get it?? There's a difference between LOVE and CARED. But you don't cared that part right? You just want me to forget about bestie! YES I WILL... Sometimes I HATE YOU baby! But not because of who you are but your EGO which makes you a man today! You know that I love you. You know that I will never leave you. I just love the way you are! Even though that your condition of your leg is like that! I know, you can't accept for who you are right now! And I know how you feel but baby, you have to accept fate! You have to be strong baby!! You just have to have FAITH in me Baby! If you keep doubting me, how are to remain strong in the first place? I leave it to you. But no matter what baby, your name, "SyafiqKAZUYA" is craved in my heart. It ain't matter if its bleeding or crushed, that name will always remain there....
Lastly, me...
Sometimes, I just want to spread my wings and just fly away from here. But I know that I need to face reality and face it no matter how hard life can be... EVEN IF YOU HAVE TO LOSE SOMEONE YOU CARED OR LOVE MOST..... THAT'S SIMPLY LIFE!! Labels: I'm Speechless yet tears have been shed...
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