Sometimes in life you have to make sacrificial! And I've already did it but not once but twice! A sacrificial that most of my friends know that I can't bare with it. Let me unfold a story that's deep within my heart. I think that it is time for me to tell every single one. Cause I've lost someone who I could even pour my heart too. He's heart is like one with me. He doesn't own me physically neither mentally right now. But he owns my heart! And he is my one and only bestie. I know that I've spoken of him I think more than 5 times I guess in my blog?And I guess that I even told you guys that I've alreay lost him a few times? I don't want to speak to soon that I lost bestie totally but yesterday I get to call bestie for that one last time. And surprisingly it was boifee who ask me to call. I believe in this word "Jealousy" but that word is not like any other word. Jealousy? hmmm... Id on't blame boifee bout that but I still don't understand.
I didn't meet bestie behind his back? Nor I kiss bestie on the cheeks. Nor I webcam with him even if Im allowed to do so.. I was just following orders. Boifee ask me these ques every single day and I answer him truthfully. "Who are you msging with?" I ans "Bestie!" Boifee's tone was still alright but I guess that his heart is raging on fire. But the important thing is I TOLD HIM THE TRUTH didn't I? So what when wrong? At first, boifee gave me and bestie the greenlight to contact each other. But he told me that I can't webcam or called bestie. And I lisentened to him! What more does he want? I just hate guys not fufilling their promises! He ask me to let go of bestie and I did it! But he seems to be not satisfy with something. He asked me "Are you willingly to let go of bestie for the sake of me or truthfully?" And I reply "I let go of bestie just for your own sake." And he was still not happy!!! The truth is that he wants me to let go of bestie willingly when he knows that I can't! Its his wish for me to let go of bestie not me! This is just insanity!!!
Like I said to boifee. "You being selfish cause you want me all by yourself!" I'm just lost of words. No words could be describe how I feel.. Only the "ABOVE" know.. I'm going to let you guys think about it.. Secretly and silently............
Labels: A tale of a SELFISH guy...
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