Its 7.15am in the morning. I just reach home with my ciggy at my mouth. Light it up and check my twitter. I then saw all the things that "JACOB" wrote. I couldn't understand anything of it. Which when I saw that he had already updated his blog and tumblr. So I decided to check it out myself. He then stated at his blog that he is wishing his last goodbye with a reason that I guess he can't explain it in words or either he don't wish to mention it. But why now? Why must he leave now when I plan everything about....... I even told Shahril to ask for his help. And when I came back, with all the things he said, my heart just fell into pieces as if a gun just shot through my heart. Every single day I was hoping and wishing that I would bump into "JACOB" But it never happened like some people say "The more you wish or hoping to see that somebody, the more it won't happened" But I can't help myself! the truth is, I'm in love with my bestie but not as in "REALLY" in love. Get it? Its like I've already lose him. And the only thing that could make me smile is his post at his blog and his tumblr. But now, after his last goodbye, How am I to survive this?
Tears have been shed while I'm typing this thing out. I'm not asking for sympathy nor I'm a FCUKING EMO! Yes I do love bestie but not the way I Love boifee more.. I just wish I could give "JACOB" a phone call and ask him by myself why he have to leave. I don't fcuking care if he have to cry and explain everything to me. I just want him to let out his pain that he is going through. I not this is not the end between my friendship with "JACOB" I know.. Cause I believe! All I could say now is...... "I miss you bestie! I really do!!"
Ps: Your name is always carved in my heart too!!
Labels: No~ This ain't your last goodbye~
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