I can tell that boifee have changed to the better but I still find him quite annoying sometimes! Wakakaka! But I don't blame him cause I know that he truly love me deeply and the truth is that I love him too. But one thing that I realise..... I've changed. Changed the way I talk to boifee, how I easily get irritated by him, how I try to so called "Get away from him" and so on and so forth. Yeah I know I'm cruel. At least I realise my mistake unlike SOME PEOPLE who don't! I don't know what's wrong with me actually nor how I could express this feeling of mine. I can be so fickle minded. Seriously i just don't know what I want in life. Its seems to be confusing in whatever I do.
Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to break out of something to free myself. Cause I just feel that I'm not free of doing anything else except to spent time with boifee. I hardly sit at home nowdays cause I spent time with boifee. Mom have been nagging at me non-stop. How I wish I could explain the real truth to her but I know she won't believe me anyway. I miss talking to mom and dad. But silence keep us apart. When I told boifee that I don't want to meet him today and just sit at home, he thinks I'm like playing a trick on him when I'm not. When he realise that I was not kidding, he starts to think all the negative things that he could think of. And he "Release" me, he will initially call me like every 10 mins or 30 mins or so. Just to check if I'm home or not. I really do love boifee. And he even changed for the better. But the truth is..... I think boifee is getting a lil bit "Paranoid" I know this word seems a lil bit harsh for him but I don't know which word to just describe him. I think I need to stop. I just need to find myself. I feel kinda lost right now.
*I'm starting to think "Have you really forgotten about me?"
Labels: You can run but you can't hide from the truth~
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