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Month of October

2010-10-09T04:25:00.003+08:00

Hello people! Yeah I've been missing like 2 months plus already. Been busy with work plus the exam. Speaking of my exams. My exam is finally over and results are out. I manage to pass every module but not pass with flying colours. Anyway life been a mess for me. Whereby I have no time at home. Plus during the Hari Raya, I'm grateful that my family is reunite as one. Thats a good start for me. Everything is falling back in place. School is going to start soon and I'm not prepared. Don't ask why. I just feel weird. Right now, my mind is blank. Got nothing to say.

So here you go. That's my beautiful family in blue for the 1st day of Raya. I'm proud to say that my family is really happy right now compared to few years back. Won't elaborate much on that part. Anyway, my long lost cousins have finally reunite with us which makes me even happier. I just love this year Hari Raya. FINALLY its that kind of feeling where you are satisfied after 1 month of fasting. I feel blessed. Thank you Allah for what you have given me. I'm just happy that I have a mom and dad who could understand a stubborn, reckless, teenager like me and my siblings. Thank you!

Well this pic above is where I usually spent time now. My WORKMATES. They are the awesome people who never fails to make me laugh with either their stupid jokes or their bimbo moments which never fails to cheer me up. For all I know, I didn't have a good chemistry with them last time. And now, I'm just happy with where I stand right now. Maybe luck is on my side right now. But happiness doesn't stay that long. I just hope that this will never change. I just love them dearly.

I'm currently happy with him. Yes, I agree there are ups and downs along the way. But he never fails to make me smile again. The way he hold my hand, the way he looks at me when I'm looking somewhere else. He makes me feel love. But he ever ask me this "Do u love me?" And I answer a simple "Yes" He sound disappointed in a way that he was not satisfied with my answer. He is like a puzzle to me. He always give me clues on what expectation he wants and then just leave it hanging. Sometimes I'm just clueless. Or I should admit I'm dumb. He does not only wants me to love him, but appreciate every single detail that he is trying hard to make me notice him. Which I fail to do so. That's when I realise after reading Atin's blog. My boifee makes me think. But not just think one way, but in different types of ways. He makes my brain function faster while my heart beats harder. Maybe we girls have been complaining much when our partners have already did something sweet for us. Every single detail counts for them. But we girls, didn't realise it cause we want more.

Oh my god. How could I've been stupid when boyfriend was helding out his hands all these while, I was just blinded by my own wants. Which make me blinded by his good deeds.

Dear boifee,

I'm sorry to be such a fool to be blinded by your kindness all these while. When I was busy envy other girls, getting what they want from their partners, you were busy trying to grab my attention. I know u've told me that you're not romantic and stuff. And yes I agree to it. But I'm sorry for my foolishness not to see a tiny effort that you've put through for me. I thank you for that. And I appreciate all you've done. And I'm sorry for all the things I said like "Why you won't notice me." or "Why won't you treat me like your GIRLFRIEND instead of your other girl friends?" You even said sorry after that. Even you knew it wasn't your fault. I'm sorry my love. I'm really sorry...

Asiteru ♥♥

Aliff อำนาจ

Madly in love~

2010-08-13T20:48:00.004+08:00

Can I just update nonsense today since I haven't yet receive the National Day pictures. Anyway, speaking of National Day, it was fun at the beginning, chaotic at the middle part then a blast at the end. That's all all I could say. well certain people disappoint me in a way. Not only 1 or 2. But actually there's more. Moving on, the picture above represent my soul which is Tokio Hotel. Whoever finds that the singer is gay or whatever shit, you guys can SUCK your own bloody DICKS! Yeah that's right! At least they're famous now. While you still searching for your own self. So yeah, as I was saying, I just miss them at SINGFEST which

falls on 4-6 August. But I want them to come down at Singapore to really have their OWN concert somewhere like Indoor Stadium or something!! GAH!! PLS COME BACK Tokio HOTEL!!

So most of you should know that I'm happily attached to this guy here. Won't tell you what's his name. If you know than good for you. If you don't find out your yourself. Nyahahahaa! I'm just blessed to have him by my side. He makes me smile, and makes me laugh non-stop. Not forgetting to make me piss. But that's relationship. You have to face ups and downs. I find it nonsensical if a couple doesn't fight. Seriously, it will turn out boring! So my boifee here thought me a lot of things in relationship. It may not be perfect. But that's the main point actually.

Well boifee thought me how to be independent not to be depend on others that much. Plus he thought me how couples should not meet every single day because they will intentionally get bored. Instead, couples should sometime feel missed with their partners. Well, I think I shouldn't type out some certain stuff about boifee cause everyone has their own strength and weaknesses. And I shouldn't type about boifee's flaws right here. Its just bad. That's all. But the truth is I haven't meet boifee for like 4 days and including tomorrow its gonna be 5 then plus the next would be 6. I don't know when we will meet but I just let fate decide.. Cause love is full of mysteries..

There's a saying:

If you can read it says: This isn't the time to make hard and fast decision. This is the time to make mistakes and take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love.. ALOT. Major in philosophy cause there's no way, to make a career out of that. Change your mind and change it again. Because nothing is permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again, what we want to be, we don't have to guess. We'll KNOW.

-Jessica Stanley.

A secret~

2010-08-04T18:39:00.003+08:00

Hey ho!! Yeah! Its been long time since I update my blog again.. My birthday was a blast thanks to ...... Heehs.. I did have fun. Thanks people for those birthday wishes. People still owes me presents. Nyahahahaha! I know I'm bad. Anyway life's been great if I have to put aside my projects and school work. Like someone said, I'm slowly progressing steadily with life. Meet new people, new friends and more. Currently I'm attached! Supposing to keep it a low profile thanks to boifee. He just want people to know by themselves. So I'm like officially attached? Wow! Me and boifee were even surprise ourselves. Feeling kinda weird and stuff and all the shits that's going through our minds. Yes I'm attached but I won't say who. Whoever knows, keep it to yourself.

Finally!!! The event is freaking over! Right~ Actually not truly over but 40% of it is. Yeah nonsensical it is. Actually I already update how we've been through on my previous post. So I just uploaded this pictures here. More pictures, just go to my facebook.

A plain post~

2010-07-29T22:19:00.003+08:00

Alright. Firstly, Apologies for not updating my blog. Cause I'm freaking busy with EOP. Seriously I've been facing shit and craps all day long. Actually the whole group of mine face the same shit as well. Listening to criticism, bad remarks by some of the lecturers.We almost give up. But nope we didn't thanks to some of my group members who still have that lil faith in our group which make us look strong from the inside out.

Today was a total mess actually. All was done last minute. My lecturer kept telling me that our booth was the only one left that is yet to be done. While the other groups are almost done with their booth. The rest took almost the whole day to construct the booth while we took like almost and hour to complete it. Of course thanks to Aisah, Shahril and An who have been keeping awake most of the time to complete the task. Well the rest of the members did some work too. But not that much. Hahahaha! Still, each and every one of us contribute something and that keeps us going.

This is only the beginning and tomorrow is the big day. We're so gonna prove the rest of the lecturers wrong even though that we've been causing them a lot of trouble. I'm blessed to have them. Even though we may face hardship but that is what teamwork is. We face ups and downs together.

Anyway,moving on to my life, I'm left with 2 more days and I'm 19. There's nothing fcuking special about being 19. I just feel that I'm getting older day by day plus I've gain weight like 3 to 4 kg. How FCUK up is that. So tell me, why must I be so happy about that? So what if my birthday is coming. Its just that one special day, than that's it! Nothing could be spoken off right now. Well, Aisah birthday is the same as me! And I'm happy that her boifee is bringing her out for a special day! Woot Woot~ All the best girl!!! Stay happy always!!! Alright! I think I wanna go outside and help the others cause the truth is, I'm at Shahril's house having a slumber party! (IN YOUR DREAMS BITCH!) Neh!! Actually, we're trying to do the final touch at Ril's house than sleepover! Hell yeah! My life is soo gonna be ruin!! NOT!

Another outing~

2010-07-19T22:58:00.004+08:00

Hello, hello, hello! Kinda bored right now, so might as well I update my blog or else SOMEBODY would complain to me. Anyway I'll start with what I did yesterday than I'll update the latest one which is today.

So yesterday, bestie pick me up from work. Sweet right? I know! Hahaha! Anyway, after work, we had dinner at Mac Donalds. Talking about YOG and how he survive during that day. How I wish I have the chance to participate in YOG. But its ok cause bestie told me that he has 4 free tickets for the opening ceremony and 2 tickets for closing ceremony. I chose the closing ceremony. But I don't know who should I bring along with. Hmmmm.. Anyway, after eating like one fat pig, we decided to cam whore which is our normal routine nowdays. We couldn't find any good spot when I told him that I haven't been to Marina Bay Sand. So he make my wish come true.

The place was tremendous! It was damn beautiful. We took a lot of pictures there. I didn't feel the least tired at all instead I had fun. Seeing the beautiful scenery, walking side by side with bestie and yes, taking pictures. We talk along the way talking about stupid jokes, sharing my days at work and more. I never get bored spending time with him. Seriously I would like to thank him for the most memorable outing with him.

Moving on to today! So nothing much happened today at school. Just had fun as usual. Stupid jokes, criticizing some boy in our school. Sharing thoughts with one another. What could be better? Laughing my ass out the whole day. So after school, I meet HIM. As usual walking side by side, talking non-stop. Writing, scribbling stupid stuff inside my book. Nothing much to do. But we had a small fight just now and silence is what we did all the way till I waited for my train. When it was left 2 mins, I wanted to shook hands with HIM before saying goodbye. He then hug me and apologize to me. I said the same thing too and hug him real tight. Even though we're not official yet. But its hard for me to let him go. I just can't. I don't usually say the word "Love" to HIM. Even he have difficulties to pronounce it.

To HIM, saying the word "Love" every single day would get boring and there won't be much excitement. As for me, saying the word "Love" to my partner every single day is just a waste of time. Actually not exactly but my point is: Why must you say it but there's no action put to it. Yes I admit that I have the urge to tell HIM "I love you" not only me but HIM too. But its common and he's just scared that our love towards each other would fate and I don't want that to happened.

Ps: Bestie, I'm sorry I didn't catch a movie with you cause I watched it before thus I'm with HIM. I hope you'll understand. I'm sorry. Hope you'll forgive me.. :(

Outing on Sat~

2010-07-11T19:31:00.003+08:00

Bestie!

Hey supp!! Actually I wanna post on Saturday but I'm too tired to even do anything! Alright so this is what happened on Saturday:

Bestie participate in the YOG where he is honoured by holding the Singapore flag. Isn't that great!!! Wow! I wish I had the chance to do that but sadly I know I won't, so yeah, I know I should shut the Fcuk up and continue the post. So bestie told me that supposing he finish at 12pm but end up he was dismissed at 12.47pm. I only have to wait 40Min's and bestie felt guilty. Surprise I am, the first guy to have that kind of reaction too. Awwww.. How sweet. And he rush to grab his bag to call me. When actually I'm taking my own sweet time at my store. Hahahaha! I know I'm bad.

So after we met, we find a place which is quite shady for us to sit and just talk. Talk about a lot of stuff. Well mostly are nonsensical while the others are just cam whoring(My favourite thing to do.) We walk at the Esplanade, pass by the Fullerton hotel, talk craps again. Then bestie thought me a lil bit of history! Then talk crap again till 2.30pm then we took the train at Raffles. Seriously I had fun! Thanks bestie for the treat! Heehs!

After we separated, I have to pick him up near Forum. For a moment I almost got lost. But nah I didn't. Well this time I waited like more than 30mins I guess. When he arrived, he was all smiling and stuff. And at the same time he apologies to me for being late. Then he treat me to eat at Mac Donalds FIRST. Actually just 2 big fries. Then we walk all the to Taka just to Window shopping. Then back to Woodlands Causeway to catch a movie, Eclipse. Before that we eat AGAIN at Banquet! Haiyo. Now I know he's stomach is like a tank. After the whole event. We drop at CCK Lrt and we walk all the way to Teck Whye LRT, and we talk some things.. Awwww.. It was quite sweet and meaningful actually. I just can't describe in words. Seriously, I'm just speechless. Sometimes, you don't have to come out with a sum of money with the ones you love. By just spending time, walking towards nowhere with the ones you love and talk things which is never ending is really enough. And that's where you know that he really loves to spent time with you.

PIctures been uploaded~

2010-07-09T16:55:00.006+08:00

At last pictures been uploaded! The times that I when to club. Oops! Well it took me sometime for the pictures to upload because of someone. Woot woot~ Peace Azura. You know its you, so don't deny ok? Alright right now, I'm happy schooling at ITE CCK but I'm still not comfortable with the people there. I don't know how many FCUKING times I have to repeat that SOME of the guys are still immature. If that part is put aside, I actually like the school. With new facilities around. So yeah. I miss Faz a.k.a Zac cause that bloody idiot never come to school today. She told me she has high fever and stuff. Well get well soon alright! See you on Mon. Aisah on the other hand came to school but halfway she went and meet her hubby since her hubby didn't come to school.

Actually I'm quite concern with Aisah as I'm scared if she will ditched us. Cause slowly and truthfully speaking, you are. I don't wish to said it here, but my heart can't stop my hands from typing. I understand that she just experience her 1st love. But then you can't be always be with her hubby. Don't you want to spent time with your friends too? Like you always advice on me, don't put too high hopes on the guy, cause you'll get hurt sooner or later. But you're doing it. You've changed Aisah you really did. But not because of your attitude, but you're slowly fading. You know I keep thinking, whether I should type this or not, thinking if you had the wrong impression of me. I know how much you love your hubby. And Your hubby loves you alot too. But, sometimes, in a relationship, give a gap. Leave some space to breathe! Even your hubby spend times with his friends too. Try to make it balance you know. You spend time with your hubby at the same time you spend time with us. I miss the times, we laugh together, the times we gossip together in a group. We don't feel the same without you. Just stop denying that you're still there with us. I'm sorry if it hurts if you're reading this but you're not there in our conversation most of the time. You keep yourself shut. And I miss you...

Moving on to my little brother. Most of the people here knows how much I love him, cherish him, treated him, pampered him and all those bullshit and stuff. So right now, I think its too damn much already cause he's slowly stepping onto my head without realising anything. I'm heartbroken with his attitude and I just don't know what to do. Now the thing is, I've helped him before by using my name for his Starhub bill. He promised me to pay every single month since he got the job. 1st month, the letter came, I ask him to pay, he told me he will. 3 weeks after that, I ask him again, he didn't pay up. Till now, the bill is rising! Worst still, the other day he lost his phone with that bloody sim card line he's using! I told him, to cut off the line before anyone use it. He told me he cut off. But this time I don't trust him, I wanted to call, but trying to find the right n.o to dial and check.

Now, I got a warning letter from Starhub asking to pay the bills. This time, the letter I keep as dad told me too. Oh yeah, dad saw the letters first and ask me. At first I was reluctant to tell, but in the end I share it with dad. I just couldn't take it anymore. I just feel like I've been stabbed. Seriously I thought he is my only hope. But I guess none of my siblings I could trust nor share my problems. I rather keep quiet and do my own things. Seriously, he have let me down in such a way I could breakdown. He treat this so slowly and so relax like as if that bill was never meant about him. I told dad that I'm not going to pay the bill then dad replied

"Who ask you to pay. Let him pay. Till when you're going to pampered him?"

I told dad that I'm not gonna pay even if it takes me to go to jail or what so ever. If he really wants me to go to jail, then go ahead. It shows me that he's been using me from the start. Seriously what such dilemma I had this week. FML.

Woot Woot~

2010-07-06T19:35:00.004+08:00

Hey, Hey, Hey! I'm back yaw! With more nonsensical things that I have to say today. Alright yesterday was the first day of school. It was AWESOME! But seriously I was expecting that school to obtain more ladies than "Gentlemen" well I guess I was wrong then. Don't ask me why I had the inverted for the gentlemen. Lets just say they are still immature. Anyway, I'm still not used with the "5 campus schooling under one roof" cause:

Firstly the school is damn big,
2ndly if you wanna meet your friends who is under that same campus, use hp to call no use being a hero and search the big damn school.
3rdly, different campus, different rules.
4thly, the school is in a mess during lunch time.

and the list goes on and on. So I told Ms Joei after class yesterday, what's the used of admitting that the 5 campus living under one roof but they are following their old ways. Am I not right to say that? Sheesh!! Some campus feel the unfairness of this management. Whatever FCUK! I don't give a damn right now. Cause the other reason is, I miss the 2nd day of school for today. Cool shit right? I know!!! Well class ends at 12pm so no point going to school anyways! speaking of which, I just got my time table and I'm Fcuking piss with it. My time table occupy my time to even squeeze for work! Less schedule, less pay!!!! FML!!

I don't know what to say to manager. Just when I thought I wanna have this urge to bond with my partners, this happens. Fcuk to those who always say "Shit happens!" Yeah, I know!! I don't know why but I'm looking forward to school tomorrow actually. OMFG! Seriously, I need to find another work to earn more money. My mom is starting to nag for spending my whole money just in a week. Well what can I say? I was born to be a girl with a lot of things to buy and lots of things that I'm planning to grab. So mum. I still need your support. Cause I'm schooling, working. Unlike my sister, she's not. See the difference. So stop pampering THAT BITCH and let her live. If you keep pampering she'll never stop asking you for money! Okie that's it for today folks!

My not updated blog~

2010-06-29T23:35:00.003+08:00

Okie2! Stop complaining already! I know I haven't updated my blog like really super long. Many things had happened. Meet new friends. Going to a new school. People come and go. Heart breaks. Bla, Bla, Bla. So today I just came back from work. Damn tired today. Bestie's bestfriend or should I say my bestie just now drop by at my work place. Giving me a surprise visit! Awww. So sweet. Thanks bestie. Well, he was happy of course! Getting free drinks from me obviously! Ooo.. I swear I miss the hell out of him. I wish I could play Left4Dead2 again with him and.... Yeah, I don't wish to mention the other one. Cause it just breaks my heart. And I'm in no mood to get EMO today so FML.

Moving on, I guess my readers are half dead or didn't even drop by at my blog no more cause the last time I updated was like 3 months or 2 months ago? Well who cares. So now, I'm happy with my life with my 2 besties, which is Didie and Shazwan. 3 Bitches are always part of my life. And the newbie babies which are my cliques in my class. Oh yes.. Plus the "AP" People. Yeah, I miss my brothers. I guess they'll be piss at me for not coming down for so long. Right now, its a holiday and I've been filling up these holidays by working, slacking with friends and clubbing. Wait!!! I club? Hahahahaha. Well yeah. I do club but not always. I'm just occupying time and also supposing accompanied Azura. But then there was a change last week. So it was just me and Faz and her "L" world.

Speaking of which, people thought I'm like "Not straight!" Excuse me people, I am straight. There's no FCUKING wrong of me to mix around with them. They are also people! Plus, I'm very open and expose to this kind of thing. Yeah you can say I did kiss a girl. But I'm still straight. Confused? Well then don't bother me to explain no further.

Wanna know something guys, well here's the thing. I so hate it when I haven't update my blog for like soo fcuking long, and now, when I was just about to update about my life, I am sure that I have so many things to say, which make me eventually type a very long post, then I have to checked my spelling, vocab, grammer whatever shit there is in here. Yeah I know. But that's life. Hahaha.. I know I'm a bit crabby.

Next, my siblings, nothing much on my sister. Still looking for a fcuking job for as how long? I may not know that answer too. Ever since, at one part of a time which was I'm not sure when, out of a sudden, I'm just close to my lil brother. Whom I care and love most. Yup. I'm being favouritism. Alright shit, I better stop typing now, and re-read my post. I'm sure I would come across some spelling errors and some idiotic grammar mistakes!

Good day MOKS!

Stupid jerk~

2010-05-09T01:14:00.002+08:00

Alright Im kinda piss right now. After what had just happened on my way back home from doing project work. I was standing in the LRT as there were no seats. So I was MINDING my OWN BUSINESS when I saw this familiar guy who was just about to alight from the LRT at FAJAR. That SON OF A BITCH stare at me in disgust in the way I dress I guess. Well obviously I stare back at him looking up and down trying to imply the message to him saying "What's your fcuking problem BITCH?! Get your own life!" Even he had already alight from that station, he kept looking at me in disgust. The thing is, I just can't keep my eyes off from him. Not that I ADMIRE his looks. Wait a minute.."Like EEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWW!! His face is worst than a bulldog!" To hell with him!

"Hey dog! If you want to criticise on my looks, try looking at the mirror first. Ask the mirror whether you are fit to judge on other people! Even though you're a NAFA student, you don't have to act like a DIPLOMA student. There's a difference to it. I bet you know that too right dog? And the way you dress just now, from what I see, You wore like any other "APEKS" at the coffee shop. So what if you're rich!? You're just another spoilt kid who knows how to bribe friends by just spending your money on friends. HEY DOG!! CHANGE YR BLOODY ATTITUDE! ITS ALREADY 2010! SHEESH DOG! YOU'LL NEVER CHANGE!!

Next, bestie. Im happy that I manage to be back with bestie. So right now, bestie is having a lack of confidence in himself. No matter how much I told him that he is a good guy, he still thinks that he is lack of something. He thinks that its still never enough. No matter how many times I told him that he have change, he still doesn't believes me. Oh how am I to convince him? Atin's friends... Please tell him that he is a good guy and he've changed from bad to a better person. And to bestie's dream girl, Atin is a good guy. If only you could notice him... Know how he deals with his life, thinking about you all the time and etc. I may not be that religious like you guys do. But I do believe in miracles. And if I got this one wish that could make it happened, just to make my bestie happy, I would wish that one day Atin and his dream girl would be together. I don't mind wasting that one wish to somebody important in life and that's you bestie!

Bestie outing~

2010-05-05T01:44:00.004+08:00

HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Iron Man 2 was FCUKING AWESOME!! But too many talking rather than actions. Actually the idea was to watch with my BABY which is AZURA. The reason why emphasis her name bigger, cause some people mistaken it for the word baby for bestie when its actually not. Sorry? Anyway, first thing first I accompany Azura take her pay at Changi then buy her perfume then proceed to Ehub. Waited for bestie for so long! DAMN! Till show almost started. Well he got "his reason's" for being late! Anyway, watch that movie then Azura told me she wanna go back home under some circumstances. So yeah. So me and bestie plan to go Ban and Jerry at Tampines. But he interrupted that thought and we played Left 4 Dead 2! Hell YEAH! At first everything when well. We were having fun. Then there's a part that bestie needed desperately to heal himself but just can't scroll the mouse. So he decided to change computer. Then again, after changing, the matter got worsen.

This time, the other com, the Left 4 Dead was not yet downloaded. Wakakkakaka! Then he change his computer again! This time, I stole his computer then he was FCUKING STRESS this time!! Wakakakakakaka! He have to wait for the computer to reboot itself again! So we don't really have time to play really well. Then headed to Tampines thinking there was Ben and Jerry thanks to me of course, there isn't one! -_-" So change of plan, we went to J Co Donuts instead! Cool Shit! First time dining in there! I swear I was fcuking clumsy and bestie only know it. LOL! Hush about it k bestie!?! Camwhore before eating. Then home sweet home!

Slurrp.. Slurrp!

We're back again!

his turn! Slurrp!

Posing!

As you guys know, I've already broken up. So I can do whatever I want in life right? But my ex boifee acts like we're still together? I still don't get it! Why are you reacting this way. I ain't asking sympathy by posting this to blog. But I'm a bit piss. All this while when I was with you, I listen to you. EVERY SINGLE word you said! And now you want to get piss with me cause I went out with bestie? Come on! Its not like every single day I meet him! But now, I can meet wherever ,whenever I want. Nobody can stop me Not even you. If you think that yo could post or threaten by posting your ex at facebook. Then go ahead. I don't care. Cause we aren't together anymore. So why bother? And why are you following every move I make? Like I go a relationship wth AZURA and you go in a relationship with a guy. Then you also want to watch movie. What's your motive? Then I go out with bestie, you want to post pictures about your ex. huh? I don't get you seriously!

What's your motive by doing this? Releasing anger or just plain jealousy? re you seeking attention, do you want everybody be on your side? Then go ahead. I don't mind! They are all yours. Im so sorry to say this. But you are selfish and self-centered. You want everything for yourself. I'm disappointed that you've change for the worst after losing your precious ones. And I felt pity for your ex girlfriend that you're using her as bait. Just to make me "jealous" I guess. Don't use other people for your own usage. She's not in the story. She's your past. But unless if she agrees to help you then I have no comment. I can't say anything. Its your life dude. And I ain't stopping you living your life to the fullest. But you are stopping me. By giving those threatening comments at facebook.

Nothing can be said. Lina had her say...

Updating life~

2010-05-03T23:04:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!!! Yeah I know its like been so long since I've updated my blog. Yeah2 I keep saying that like almost every time I updated my blog. -_-" Anyway. So many things have been happening around me. You know its hard updating my blog without any pictures inside. So I waited like for ages till Aisah uploaded her photos! Thanks girl!! I owe you one! These few days have been hell for me as I got my dance practice, my projects that is yet to be completed, then plus my upcoming exam which I haven't even touch on. Then comes my work which FALLS on FRIDAY and SUNDAY! So people! Get this!! I repeat I'll be working on FRIDAY and SUNDAY. Which means I'm only free on SATURDAY! Alright! I will speak no further and let me update my life!

Tutta La Strada!

So here are my group mates! Well actually there's Hilmi and also Yong Qin but there are too busy. So Im left with this. Starting from left, Aisah,Shahril(Couples), An,Azura(Couple for less then 5 mins!) Faz and me(Couple for the day!) Hehehehehe! Cute right?! LOL! Anyway, I didn't expect our group to at least get the best improvement project from Mr Hirman! Actually its more to a compliment rather than having an award but that's fine with me. Even though that our group is not the best YET. But I think we could manage just fine! Come on TUTTA LA STRADA!! We can do it. By the way, if you guys are wondering what's the meaning of that, it means "All The Way" in Spanish I think.

My girlfie!

As you can see.. Im happily attach to this beautiful, pretty woman, Azura! Hahahahaha! Alright for those who think its real! Well its not. But we look like one! Like purely in love!! Hahahaha! Some people thought it was real! SHEESH! Im still straight. And I want to enjoy my single life. Same goes for Azura. Since we are single. We put our status together in a relationship. Cute huh? Hahahaha! Alright, after the presentation, we went to Starbuck Marina Square to continue with our project! But a lot of them were late. there was Aisah, me and Azura at Starbucks! SHEESH!! Waited for the rest to come like waiting for a Durian to drop down knocking our heads! After Aisah's interview, she sleep like nobody's business while me and Azura camwhore like BITCHES! Hahahahaha! Then after a while, I decide to meet my cuzzie! Hold on to that thought alright!!

Sister and brother!

When boredom strikes!

The couple of the day!

So I decided to head down to Pasir Ris E-hub around there outside Burger King and Chill with with my best cuzzie with one of her friend. Talk, plan for the next outing and bla, bla, bla. then I took the last bus to head home! It was fun!! Heehs!!! Cuzzins! PLAN THE NEXT OUTING PLEASE!!! DON'T GIVE ME ANY REASONS and say DON'T KNOW!! I know that's IRFAN's favourite QUOTE NOWDAYS!! Heheehehe! PEACE!

The dude, the dudette,The teacher??

Lastly, on the Friday, I decided to ton at Pasir Ris with cuzzin. Well as per normal I have to wait for the "SUPERSTARS" But on that day, Ira brought along her hubby. And I was with Irfan. Reach near their block sit down and talk about "Jersey Shaw" Well I haven't even seen the show but it seems like fun! Cause Ifan and Ira's hubby keep talking about it! -_-" Yeah I know. Im like WTF, but never the less, I decided to watch a movie at E-hub. But end up, it was close. We were late like a few hours late. So in the end, we play BOWLING!! Its been so long since I've played bowling! I was nervous cause for all I know both of them are preety good. End up, first round I score like 145 points! I still fcuking remember it!

Cause I broke my previous record with my family. Then I'm not satisfy, So the next round Ira treated us this time round. And guess what, from 1st to LAST! -_-" Im like so sadded! Feel pathetic! Sigh! Its okie.. Im still looking forward for the next outing! So after the bowling we went to have breakfast at Mac Donald then chill at the nearby park! Waited for the 1st train then I headed to Woodlands to go celebrate Labour Day with my aunt's and uncle's this time, my mother side of the family! Told mom and dad about it! And dad seems to be "Ok go!" with it! So yeah! SMILE! Have a good day then!!

Com back on shape~

2010-04-28T16:55:00.004+08:00

Siblings and not Couples!

The times during Cathay!

When my appearance is like "Minah"

Awww.. The times when pple thought we're twins!

During Sec 5!

Cathay times!

Outing with cuzzins!

OMG!! My "Bangs time"

Tipsy!!

I saw these pictures in my computer!! Oh my! Such long-long time ago. Since secondary scool till now! YIKES!!!! So now, Im left with transferring. This is such a bother!!!

After the break-up

2010-04-25T23:38:00.003+08:00

So I guess that some of you may know that I broke up with him. Yup! If you guys think that I'm a bad person or anything, just say it. Caue I don't care. You don't know what I feel. You're not in my shoes so don't assume it kays? I'm a bit upset with my sister as she post this at fb "Haaaaaiz.. adek aku uat cm tk de pape gitu!" Meaning: My lil sister just act like nothing happened!" Gosh! hello! I'm aware of the situation here. But you can't force me to patch up with him right? Its my life. I can do anything I want. Why must you interfere sis? Why? You're not in my shoes. I can see that you can understand what he feels. But abg Abdil(Sis's boifee) Knows how I feel. Cause he is in my position. Don't you see sis? Its suppose to be the other way round. I suppose to be in your position and he is suppose to be in abg abdil position. But now, its the other way round. I need somebody who can really understand me, hold me in his arms, be a man and so on. And now people are seeing me the other way round as if Im in the wrong. I feel pathetic but I can't do anything much. And I'm dissapointed in someone too but I just keep quiet. Even though HE knows alot about me. But he ain't here to support me....

Lately, he has been keeping quiet. Doesn't talk alot.. He only spoke of his dream girl. I'm a bit sad cause maybe he have erased me from his mind. But who am I to force him to get back into friendship again? I don't know.. Everything seems to be getting worser each day.. But nevertheless, my babies(Clique) 3bitches and my X-qusite are occupying my time. Trying to pass time. I miss Jacob I do. But I can't do anything. Im helpless. I just have to leave it to god..

Changes~

2010-04-24T15:47:00.002+08:00

I had fun yesterday with my Babies!! Doing projects together at City Hall. Then came, my two cuzzins who accompany me along. Then Ira had to go to meet her saaayaang! Then Irfan had to go to meet his father at Pasir Ris but he told me that he would come back after meeting his father. So I continue doing my project. It was fun. The bond was closer. And Im loving it!! Sometimes I don't know why but I'm just happy being this way. Meeting friends, spending time with cuzzins, commiting to work and dance. Wow! I got so many things to do. That is why I wanted to post about today.

I ask boifee for break up just now through SMS. I know it sound stupid. But I can't take it anymore. He ask me to be committed to him. Yes its true that he have change a lot. But somethings do have their limits. I was getting irritated. I was getting tired. Thus I can't commit to him anymore as I got so many things to do now. Work, 3 projects, Dance, and upcoming exams. How am I to spent time with him? I just can't! Thus with all the reason that he have to blame me saying that I have another man. Its like ridiculous. I had enough seriously.

Ps: Im sorie Syafiq but I just can't take the pressure that you are giving me. thus with all the commitment that I already have. How am I to commit to you? I seriously can't! Im sowie! Im really sowie! Im just not that girl you're looking for. Yeah. Thats what all girls think for you right? Then do as you wish, think as you wish. Like I said, if there is no commitment or trust, why is there a bother to keep this relationship going? True? Haish.. I'm not in the mood. So sorie.....

Cousins love~

2010-04-21T20:06:00.002+08:00

Hey YA!!!! I know I haven't been updating my blog for a while right? Yeah.. Currently I'm busy with school and work plus tomorrow dance practice is going to start. This time I'll be performing at my new upcoming school ITE Chua Chu Kang! So I hope you guys would come down and support X-QUSITE! Hell Yeah!! Anyway yesterday I met up with my 2 cuzzins whom I rarely met. And I can get to see them like only once a year which is during "Hari Raya" Even if we saw each other, we just smile. How we end up chilling under the void deck? Well it was Irfan who started chatting with me at Facebook. That is when I asked to meet up. Ira and Irfan are siblings. So we plan to meet up at outside Tampines Stadium. After the meet up we decided to go under the void deck at blk 858. Sit, talk and cam whore all the way!! We catch alot things up since its almost a year since we talk! I'm sorry to say this dad but your side of your family should do something cause I'm not close with my own cuzzin and it didn't seem so right. Cuzzy lets do THIS OFTEN!!!!!

Well for boifee.. Nothing much I can say. As per normal, he lack the trust in me. Even if I told you the truth? Haish.. Anyway here's the picture boifee so that you should just shut up! And AT LEAST TRUST ME FOR ONCE!! GOSH! You're killing me!

Guest? Guest?

2010-04-14T23:40:00.004+08:00

Hey! Hey! Hey!! So in these past few days I was too lazy to update my blog as firstly I'm excited as school have reopened 2ndly, I get to meet my AWESOME classmates! Yup! That is what I'm doing for the past 3 days. So here and so, I received a comment from "GUEST" I'm not sure who is he/she/it, but has been commenting my blog these few days. Actually I'm starting to suspect who he/she/it was but I don't want to assume it well you know I'm kinda scare if I predicted the wrong person and I'm the one who'll be facing the shame. Soon after I find it kind of irritating but at the same time appreciated as I have a faithful reader. Am i right to say that?(Wait I think I might sound like Azura!) But this is the fact right? K whatever! I just hope that reader will just tell me who he/she/it is..

Wondering why am I posting this? Well firstly I love them to the max! Well in the first previous term we have our ups and downs and we come to conclusion to stop all of it and start a new life. And I'm FCUKING LOVING it!! Seriously girls! you guys crack me up even that I was upset with boifee! Argh! Speaking of which I don't want to mention about the story which happened yesterday night which make me sleep like only a few hours. ARGH!! I don't wish to talk about it either as I promise him that whatever happened between us only us 2! Yup! But sometimes promise are meant to be broken boy. I can't keep holding on to my promises if you don't! I'm sowie.....

DISASTER~

2010-04-11T23:38:00.003+08:00

First of all my dance is all over!! I mean for the DnD performance and yes I knew it, I ruin it but manage to recover my steps. I felt disappointed in myself that I didn't push myself harder. Anyway it took me around 3 days I guess to practice 4 songs with many steps in it. So I felt a bit weird for myself. I keep telling my other 2 dance mates that I let them down but they keep saying "its not your fault! Its okie." But no matter what they say, the guilt is there and I'm the one who's carrying it. whatever it is right now, I still had fun with Aisah and Shai! Thanks guys!

So you all know that school's going to start tomorrow right? Haish! I'm still in my holiday mood. I feel like not going to school tomorrow! But at the same time, I miss my classmates even though so many things have happened in the class. Yup! So many changes have took place. And no matter what I still accept it as it is. Somethings are almost back to normal but this time just a little bit different. Starting anew is the best way. I feel a bit excited at the same time to see all of them. Greeting them, smiling at them, disturbing them and just lots more. Tomorrow will be a new day for us and its the 2nd year already. Due to some circumstances, our old CA, Aunty Jo have to leave us and now our new CA, Ms Joei Chua will replace her. Everything will be new. Well not all. Hmmm...... July will be the happiest moment of my life... School's transferring at Chua Chu Kang, going out with Bitches ft mom and Lastly... Yes, my BIRTHDAY. Well I got nothing to say now.. Toodles!!

Dancing, Dancing~

2010-04-10T20:17:00.004+08:00

So Suffy told Aisah that there was a misunderstanding as the performance is actually tomorrow and not on Sat. So I got the last practice just now. Luckily I manage to remember the steps. But I still need to beautify the steps. Yup! I practice with Aisah only as Shai could not make it. She got something going on at home. Anyway, Chatted alot with her. Laugh till we cry. Roll over at Republic poly making that school as if that's our own home. Then back to practice. I'm just afraid when the real performance come, I might blew the whole thing up. You know, its different when you practice with your friends and performing in front a whole lot of people. Yeah! Nervous breakdown PEOPLE!! Gosh!! I hope everything will go well tomorrow! Wish me luck people!

Alright as for you Baby! Things are going quite well for us. And I'm happy that you've change tremendously. Including me too. But there's still somethings that's bothering my mind. Its not I'm selfish having boifee to change to what I want. But all I want is for him to be a "MAN" A true mature man. To support me to hold me in my arms. To be NOT IRRITATING. To not talk so LOUD like girls always do. Laugh out loud! Like you know, having no limits.. At least talk when necessary and stuff. Being "Gayness" Well not all guys are comfortable about it you know. I just wish you could see the good side of this craps I'm typing. How I wish... You could be my man, And not be a "Gegirl!" Cause I need your support sweetie. I really do. Cause you don't expect me to like be a guy in this relationship right? Get my point??

Party all night long at Zirca~

2010-04-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

Blue Couples!

Blue Eye shadows!

My Sex's Bomb!

Me and Yem!

Partying with the Rock SLumber brothers!!

Zirca! Zirca!! Yup! There is where I party all night yesterday! Hahaha! I had a blast! But it was quite irritating at the beginning! As The twins and one of his friends couldn't go inside. Don't ask me why as I don't have the answer either. In the end, the 3 of them decided to open a guest list and have to pay $220 just to open one! Oh my! So they really did. All of them get to go in like after 12 midnight? This is my first time ever experience to club. I swear its fcuking awesome inside! The music was so effing loud! Everybody was dancing. Even the ones who dance terribly look nice when dancing because of the "Lighting's!" Woah! I never enjoy myself this much before my entire life! Well I did drink but I don't drink that much cause I have to line up to get a drink with the queue so long, and it was ladies night, how the hell that's going to happened! Well surprisingly, I met my primary school friends, my old god brother, my childhood friends, surprisingly BOTH of them were there. Then I saw Adelyn's old crush "Sheikh" YES GIRL! I SAW HIM!! Just nudge me at Msn after reading this post. Then I saw Hairi but I couldn't see Jupp. An and Lala was there. Wow! So many people to mention.

Here's the thing, before I even step into the club, I saw this guy. From one look, I thought it was bestie. But when I think again he is under probation and how could he possibly go in to Zirca? Then I realise it was his so call look alike. But I swear both of them don't look alike instead they look EXACTLY the same! I even share this with boifee. And he also agree! So I drop the topic and when inside to continue my tremendous night. Then I saw him again, dancing. His dance, his smile, his eyes all were the same except for their teeth! Other than than, they are the same! But, this "Bestie" look alike kinda look emo to me you know. Kinda like showing Bestie's emo side. Hahahaha! Yeah I know I sound "Merepek!"(Stupid!) But its true right? He's kinda emotional these days! Hope his alright! The truth is, even though he is not physically there yesterday night, but I swear its as if his presence was there.

3rd april~

2010-04-05T15:26:00.002+08:00

Couples outing!

Statue of the day!!

Dark Vader!

So on the 3rd of April me and boifee when for an outing. We went to Penni to buy some stuffs. Like clothes, bags, pants.. Yabidee, yabedeng!! Bla, bla, bla... then after the shopping when and meet Bad and Sha at Taka KFC who have been waiting for us like FOREVER!! Sorry guys!! Hehehehehe! yup.. had our Late Lunch then headed off to Taka garden thinking that we could stop and have a break. But then it was drizzling so we decided to go Plaza Singapura cause Bad need to claim a ring for a friend. after all the havoc, we went to Bugis thinking that Fuad will be there. But nope! He ain't. So we walk around at Bugis Iluma where we took pictures with the "Stars" Hahahahaha! well we miss Optimus prime show like only a few days back. I've been looking forward to it. Haish.. But never the less I had fun with them. Shopping, window shopping and lots more.. Well, after all that, we were tired thinking that we should head back home. But only Sha and Bad went home. As for me and boifee, we head down to Marsling to continue chilling. All the way till 7.30am!!! I swear my eyes were like stones. I just can't open them anymore!! Haish!! Speaking of which!! DARMA!!!!! I WANT THE PHOTOS TO BE UPLOADED!! DAMN!!

Actually I wanted to update about sun outing with family. But no photos have been taken. So sorry! So this is how it start. I've already reach home around 8 plus. Mom wats to get out of the house by 10.45am!! goodness. I got 2 hours of sleeping.. Maybe less than that. After the wake up call. I have to wait for that buffalo to finish her make up and stuff. Then after, I could get ready. In the end, we went out at around 11.25 am. And show starts at 12pm! Right~ I know we were late.. Mom was nagging non-stop!! Im like mumbling to myself, while my lil-brother is dancing non-stop. That buffalo and my father just cannot be bother.. Waited for the taxi.. bla, bla, bla.... In the end, we reach Bugis Iluma first. Bought the popcorn and drinks then headed to the movie theartre.. So here's the ting. shows haven'r even started yet. Its only the advertisement. Mom kept blaberring saying "I've never been to the cinema with the lights already off and the advertisement already been showned!" I reply her this.. Yes I know its rude but I've been keeping it so long. " Well that's you and it ain't us. And the show hasn't even staretd and you're blabbering all the way. Can you just sit and enjoy the show?"

My mom kept quiet! Sorry mom. But I can't stand it anymore... Shows started. And I swear Im enjoying it. The sit next to me is empty but there was another couple right next to the empty sit. Suddenly " KRING!! KRING!! KRING!!" I'm like so irritated... That idiotic fellow could pick it up!! He talk so loud that I could not stand it no more!!!!!!! I shouted "EXCUSE ME!!! DO U MIND?!!!" That MOTHER FCUKER could even ignore me!!! But his girlfriend look to me in an apologetic manner which I feel like I wanna slap her.. Yup.. I bet there are not Singaporean!! After the show ended I stare at the girlfriend shouting out loud like nobody business!! But in Malay! Translation: "Talk on the phone so loud like thats your mom and dads movie theatre! Or worse still! you've book that movie theatre ALONE!!!" Well on the other hand, I could see my dad chuckled a bit. so yeah.. After the movie.. Mom bought two phones.. then we drink Coffee bean and when staright to Arab Street to Eat murtabak..

Lastly, we went to Causeway point to buy a sofa bed for my lil bro!! I even ask my mom to buy something for me there.. As a birthday gift!! A MAC BOOK PRO!! Woohoo!!! I'm going to obtain it soon enough!!! YES!!! Well in end up going to family was fun.. But only the ending part.. Wakakakakakakaka!!!

After some time~

2010-04-02T23:35:00.003+08:00

yeah2! I know, I haven't been updating my blog for quite sometime. Hahahaaha! Well been busy with the usual but this time with something new which have been just added in my life. Yup2! Its my X-Quisite! So my schedule right now is dancing, working, dancing and working all the way. School is coming up. So I guess school is included soon. Haish! This is the first time Im handling it all 3 at once. Its like a big challenge for me. Yup.. i don't know whether I could handle it right. Well with all the memorising in my exams, memorising my dance steps and of course trying to arrange the schedule I have for work. Its all cramp at once! And the best part is, all the cramping are those things I love most doing. But gosh 3 at once? Can I make it? I hope so..

Well as for boifee and me. Things are going pretty smoothly. And I kinda like it you know. but there are still some things that needs to be change a bit. yup2! His "GAYNESS" Its freaking the hell out of me. "Baby if you're reading this, yes, Im a bit awkward about your gayness. Its like as if Im the boy and you're the girl you know. And I need a man! Not a "Girl" Get my point hunny?"

yup, I think that's it.. Nothing much to say.. But so much to feel..

That idiotic BUFFALO~

2010-03-31T14:13:00.003+08:00

So hey!!! Currently I just woke up as I did not have much of a sleep. Anyway yesterday night was a terrible nightmare for me. Usually I like to sleep when the light has been switch off. So its like pitch black inside my room. And that buffalo like to come in and ruin my sleep. But I don't mind at all. Instead, I rise from my bed and switch off the light after she settle down on her bed. So I did. Well, my sister has this phobia of GHOST. Well everybody has fear in life. and Im not saying that im not afraid of ghost. I do too. but not as bad as that buffalo! Anyway, after switching off the light for her, I sounded asleep already. At around 3 plus in the morning, she ask me to switch on the light. I refuse to do so cause I've already strain my leg thus, I just came back from work and I was so FCUKING tired. What do you expect? Obviously I declined her. And that makes her even mad. She then throw a bloody watch on my head, which makes me so furious that I took the watch and slam on the floor rather on HER FACE!!

Even when Im furious, I can still respect her bloody face alright! Cause I know that Im just her little "Sister" Yeah!! But instead she got so mad that the watch broke into pieces! She started to nag, I started to shout. But the best part, I could still go out from that room bringing along my pillow and my stitch! To continue sleeping outside without disturbing her. I bang the door and marched outside. From the outside at my living room where I was lying on the sofa, I could hear her complaining to her boyfriend. But I was not least interested in it. So I continue sleeping. I heard the door open and this part makes me even more furious! SHE THROW MY BREAKING DAWN ON THE FLOOR! The book that my mom bought for me as a gift!! I WAS FCUKING FURIOUS!! She quickly lock the door, and I kick and punch the door several times asking her to open the door. At that moment, I was furious and I couldn't think anymore. I never been this angry before and this is the first time that I feel like punching and kicking her face. I don't care what's going to happened!

My father came out and was shouting as well. I explain every single thing while crunching my teeth. My father on the other hand was asking that Buffalo to open that door. But that buffalo refuse to. My father try every key to open it. But failed. Lastly, my father shouted so loud that she finally open the door. This is the BEST PART. She came out trying to get close to me. And she just so called scratch my face, Woah!! I don't know what I was thinking and I wanted to punch her face already! My father some how push her away.. And she said this to my father " why are you defending her? I just WANT TO SWITCH ON THE LIGHT and she already makes a lot of noise" when actually, she was FORCING ME to switch on the light!! What a DRAMA QUEEN! after all the commotion. she storm out of the house. WOW! And I thought she was scare of ghost, yet she could still go out. Me on the other hand was walking back and forth at the living room trying to calm myself down. but I can't! Soon after tears roll down my cheeks tremendously. My father then said "Stop walking aback and forth like a mad person and go to sleep." So I did go back to my room. This time locked the door.

My mind was not at ease and my heart was still on fire. I couldn't think anymore. so I decided to call boifee. but he didn't pick up. So I called my god bro and explain every single thing. Actually the truth is, if my god bro hadn't pick up, I would called bestie.. But luckily my god bro pick up. I cry non-stop, my breathing was like something I can't explain like as if its been mixed together. Almost 19 years of life, I've always get beaten by my siblings and most of the time I just kept quiet and follow instruction just to get out of trouble. The least I could do was just to nag at them and nothing more. the last time I kick my brother, he kick me back resulting a back pain and I was lying on the floor. So I've learnt my lesson not to punch or kick anybody in the house. But what the buffalo do yesterday was I guess releasing my 19 years of anger and revenge towards my lil bro and her. But luckily I didn't PUNCH her face and put her to hospital. I swear to god yesterday I could just do anything. Omg!!!! I think that's a lesson for her. Never ever try to lose some body's patience especially to the "Weaklings" You may actually face the WRONG opponent!

Reply to his blog~

2010-03-30T00:05:00.006+08:00

First and for most I would like to thank Faz for treating me playing pool with you guys!! Thanks alot again for the time again. I really enjoy myself there.. Although it was a bit tough at the beginning as we were screen by HSA. Only Faz and Siddiq were the one who got the "Saman" while me and Hisham were free like a bird. Pheeew! Close call. Anyway I met Mistake and Thaqif while playing pool! Hahahaha! Its been so long since I've met mistake! I miss him being there, hanging out with us! yup. Everybody seems to be separated in their own ways.. Haish..

Alright! so tomorrow I got dance practice with Aisah 10am at Republic Poly. Damn!! I have to wake up early in the morning!! Aiyaiyaiyaiyai!! For the past few days I've been sleeping like so soundly and tmr is the day I have to do it! Plus I'm working at 6pm till closing. Tomorrow seems to be so busy for me. Anyway, I receive a message from Mira asking me whether I'm free or not tomorrow. And I can't reply her as my prepaid was low. But soon after boifee top up $5 for me. And I thankful for that. Thank you so much! So I reply her. But she hadn't reply me yet. -_-" haish! I swear tomorrow will be a tiring day for me!!

Lastly, ah yes.... Boifee.. He finally can't take it so he msn with Jacob. Surprisingly Jacob reply. So im not sure what they talk about. Its like guys talk. So I shouldn't be interfering right? Yup I shouldn't but the temptation is there alright. So this msg is for the both of you. I LOVE the BOTH of YOU! Boifee and bestie!! YES Im being SELFISH! And NO I can't forget BESTIE! YES, I want to CONTACT with BESTIE! And YES I HATE being CONTROL! Once I've been control.. See the shit that I give you. So don't blame me! Bestie you know how I am. And same goes to my BITCHES! Once you give me shit, I give you triple the shit! So endure the pain while you can? You wanna leave me? Go ahead. but I promise you that the shit that Im giving you doesn't involve the 3rd party! Just me and you boifee. Just by giving you my SHITTES attitude! Like, being REBELLIOUS! You hold back my freedom.. This is what you get. If you want to say that im heartless. Just say it. I just can't be bother seriously.. And to Bestie, Im sorry if I have to this... You know how I can be when it comes to this. Im just your bestie.. And you're my bestie. Why can't he understand the bond that we have..? Sorry to disappoint you in a way..

And boifee: I'm still reconsidering about my bike license or a car license. If that's my dream or passion, then you can't stop me..

Happy Birthday Mom~

2010-03-28T20:33:00.003+08:00

Happy 47th birthday mom!! Yeah I may not be the first one to wish you. But Im the first sibling to wish you! Hehehehehe! LY mom! Don't worry! I won't forget about your birthday! Today is an important day for you. But its such a miss that you have to work on this very day. im sorry that there were no gifts on this day of yours. but nevertheless I will love you always. I may cause you alot of trouble but you cannot stop believing in me and also to your other 2 children. You may never know that in the future, we are the ones who will be there always with you.

Mom, you're the strongest mom I ever met. With all the hard work you have to go through plus all the comotion that is happening around the house, you never give up easily. U still hold on and never let go. "We" felt ashamed at the same time feel releived that you're the one. You never stop giving me hope and support all activites that I want so much.. eg: Bike.. "UNLIKE SOMEBODY WHO DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO DO SO!" So yeah! I know its abit corny.. But you just don't know how much you mean to me. I may not show it to you verbally but I do care.. Its not that Im afraid or shy. But its just who I am.. and I guess you're the only one who understand that!

FALSE ALARM~

2010-03-28T08:53:00.003+08:00

Hey!! As per normal, I was checking my twitter and my face b and decided to check out my blog as well. Then there's this particular person who tag me at the tag board saying that Jacob wanted to study for his coming exam! I'm like "WHAT!?!?!" So its just a fcuking false alarm! Well just ignore the recent post guys as I'm a bit shy right now after the so call "Prank" that just happened and apologies for the so call "EMO" post! But the words that I type at my recent post are true! I do miss Jacob! And if I had this one chance, yes I will meet him. Someday, somehow I know its going to happened...

Next up..

Yeah!! Its an old pic of mine which I manage to search through my pile of rubbish inside this horrible lappy! And I miss them a hell lot more!! Busy with time I guess. I wish I could meet them as soon as possible! There's so much to tell! Like girls always like to say "When a girl meets a girl, the gossip will never be miss" BUT "When the bitches meet the "Bitches" the BITCHING will never stop!" they're my heart beat and my soul. I miss you BITCHESSS!!

Lastly..

HELL YEAH!!!!!!! MY MOM BOUGHT BREAKING DAWN!!! The continues of ECLIPSE!! I swear to god that I love my mom!! But not because of she buying me all this stuff! I know that she's going to buy this book soon enough cause she's going to complete the book ECLIPSE! Oh gosh!! YES PEOPLE my mom is addicted to the twilight SAGA!! And now she's eloping my book Eclipse to read on her way to work, after work and even COOKING! WOW!
Psssst~ Wanna know something? Sometimes she laugh by her own self when reading the book!
See? The power of the book?? How it could make a person's imagination runs wild!! And I'm loving it!!! Alright I'm gonna end my post, switch off this BLOODY lappy and read my breaking Dawn!

His last goodbye~

2010-03-27T07:13:00.005+08:00

Its 7.15am in the morning. I just reach home with my ciggy at my mouth. Light it up and check my twitter. I then saw all the things that "JACOB" wrote. I couldn't understand anything of it. Which when I saw that he had already updated his blog and tumblr. So I decided to check it out myself. He then stated at his blog that he is wishing his last goodbye with a reason that I guess he can't explain it in words or either he don't wish to mention it. But why now? Why must he leave now when I plan everything about....... I even told Shahril to ask for his help. And when I came back, with all the things he said, my heart just fell into pieces as if a gun just shot through my heart. Every single day I was hoping and wishing that I would bump into "JACOB" But it never happened like some people say "The more you wish or hoping to see that somebody, the more it won't happened" But I can't help myself! the truth is, I'm in love with my bestie but not as in "REALLY" in love. Get it? Its like I've already lose him. And the only thing that could make me smile is his post at his blog and his tumblr. But now, after his last goodbye, How am I to survive this?

Tears have been shed while I'm typing this thing out. I'm not asking for sympathy nor I'm a FCUKING EMO! Yes I do love bestie but not the way I Love boifee more.. I just wish I could give "JACOB" a phone call and ask him by myself why he have to leave. I don't fcuking care if he have to cry and explain everything to me. I just want him to let out his pain that he is going through. I not this is not the end between my friendship with "JACOB" I know.. Cause I believe! All I could say now is...... "I miss you bestie! I really do!!"

Ps: Your name is always carved in my heart too!!

Back from the Chalet again~

2010-03-25T17:54:00.003+08:00

Me and boifee!

His super fun Classmates!

That's Ayu~

Alright! First and formost Im going to apologise for not updating my blog cause I've been waiting for the pictures to be uploaded! So here it goes... On the 21 March boifee plan to bring me to his classmate chalet! But sadly I was working on that day. Nevertheless, I did managed to go to the chalet cause I finished work at 10pm so I still got time to go. Seriously when I reach the chalet, I thought I was the only girl there. but then I saw Ayu which was Rahman's friend! so most of the time i spend time with her.

Fun! Fun! Fun! It was super duper cool! Manage to go ice skating with bifee at E-hub! Wasn't that great cause I fall a few times. And boifee recorded it without helping me! Thanks so much! Hahahahahaha! Actually Im kinda lazy to continue. So can I just skip this part while you guys enjoy the picture. Heehs!?

*You know how hard it is for me to forget you? Its killing me!!

My past~

2010-03-20T23:06:00.006+08:00

I woke up in fear. Not shivering but just my facial expression tells it all. I dreamt about my ex whom I've been with for 2 years plus. Well the dream was nothing scary actually. I just bumped into him and saw his new girlfriend. I knew all along in reality that it was going to happened but not sure when is the right time. Informer have spread the news till it reached me. You don't have to know who it is. Maybe or just maybe it was my instinct. Well that was the dream. Isn't scary at all right? Well the scary part wasn't about my ex being together with his new girlfriend. But its his new girlfriend who have been giving nightmares even before my ex and me broke up. I'm not going to tell in details and I'm not assuming who's fault was it.

I just want to tell all about me. Just me, myself and I! Ques: Have you guys ever meet your own true self? Like face to face? Like you're facing a mirror?

I have! And it really scares the hell out of me! When I look at her, I didn't admit at all that I'm totally like her! Her interest, her likings her freedom, her looks(Well almost like me but with nicer body and a "Pretty" face) and realise that I've been always hated myself from the beginning. Without me realising how cruel I am towards people, how nice I could be, how caring I am to the ones I love, every single thing was in her! But except that she has everything and I don't and that's LOVE. Pure love and sincerity in her that I do not obtain.

I use to denied that I'm like her. Afraid to admit the real me. but news kept telling me that I'm like her in a way. Hahahaha! I remember the jealousy of her whenever she went out with my ex. Is like she's replacing me! She likes what I like and everything. So there isn't any problem to my ex. The only thing we use to fight would be about her, being the 3rd party. Its not that I regret breaking up with my ex. No! Don't get the wrong idea. Is just that I remember every single word he said to me last time "Don't worry! I won't be with her even if we break up! she is just a close friend of mine!" And now i know why he is hiding the relationship with her. Cause he remember every single word that he said. So words are just words huh? I ain't mad if he move on with his life cause i already move on with mine.

If I really meet him and his new girlfriend walking down the road, I will smile with sincerity. I won't get mad or even show a stuck up face to them cause its already over! But one thing for sure, I will hate her always and forever till death! That's how I realise how I hate myself so much. Till I can't face her nor the mirror. I still remember how she torture my soul slowly and painfully without even touching me. Giving me nightmares how she behaves and her looks. Seriously she is driving me nuts. I don't know maybe my ex chose her because he loves the OLD me. And she's delivering it now. & I realise I've changed. Changed to I may not know who. The truth is, I'm still searching for myself deep within. People may see what I'm like. But I don't and it frustrates me even more. Thus, I do feel ashamed that my friends know my true colours and I don't. Cause all the mistakes I may have done may cause tremendous horror to people's impression. And it scares me to hell.

When you meet the real you, I swear you're gonna freak out as well. Some may find it cool. But I don't! Cause every human is unique in their own way. And when you find somebody who's exactly the same as you, you may find that you are not unique at all or lets just say that you're not one in a million! Get my point? Haish..

Between her bestest friend and her love of her life~

2010-03-18T18:16:00.002+08:00

Trying my best to even forget bestie but I just can't. Like Bella who could not even let go of Jacob. Like Edward how he loves Bella. Like Syafiq how he is being protective towards me. The truth is, I can't let go for the both of them. And the memories which I keep reminiscing all the time. Haish! The pain that I have to go through just to let go of him. And how I spoke of bestie with my friends. Its just too painful. Bestie may show that he is strong on the outside but he is still weak in the inside. I know that nobody could replace a bestfriend like him even boifee! As boifee, he is changing to the better! But the over protective is still there. I love boifee and bestie dearly. How I wish that I wouldn't have to sacrifice a friend whom have been always been there for me!

back from class chalet~

2010-03-17T13:57:00.007+08:00

Adelyn, me, Faz and An!

Hilmi!

Joey, Simyee and Adelyn!

An and Faz

Shahril(Bro) who stole my book!

Hooray!!! Im back from the chalet!! thanks to Aunty Jo and Ms Joei for giving us this one oppotunity to have the bonding of the class together! I really enjoy myself there. And I never regret to be there as well! No doubt that there was ups and downs along the way but we managed to stick as one back again! actually at first I was uncertain on whether I wanna go to the chalet or just sit at home and rot to hell. But I told myself just to go there and enjoy myself regardless of the critisim that I know that I have to face. But in the end, the chalet was worth while. So as for today, Its gonna be a damn Fcuking long post aite? So readers, brace yourself unlike any other post that I've posted out.. So here goes...

1st day: Met Shahril at the opposite of Pending LRT. Then took 963 proceed to Woodands to continue our journing by taking 168 to proceed to tampines! It was a long journey and Shahril fell asleep. I occupy myself by reading ECLIPSE. Along the way met Razmir who took the same bus(168) as us but we alighted first and went our seperate ways. We met Aisah before proceeding to Pasir Ris. By the way, we suppose to meet 5pm at Pasir Ris interchange and my watch stated that it was 5.30pm. So we quickly rush to take bus 354 and alighted at Downtown East. We were lost. So I called Moo to help us along the way. we reach the chalet around 6 plus. Put our stuff and greeted the others. At first it was damn boring! And to my surprise the chalet wasn't the chalet that I expected. everybody was busy writting letters to aunty Jo, so I wrote last minute. I managed to finished it, while An and Shahril was still having rough times writting the letter. Aunty Jo arrived and greeted the rest who were outside at first. But she insisted to go in to greet the rest who were still inside which includes me, adelyn, Faz, Shahril, An and some other people that I could not remember. When I heard Aunty Jo is coming inside, I told them to hide all the things that we've been preparing for Aunty Jo's last Goodbye! Shahril and An were

like animals jumping up and down trying to hide the letters that they were writting. In the end, the bed was in a mess thanks to them! Anyway, we waited for the rest to come and so started the event. we sang songs for Aunty jo, show her some clips, say a few words to her and she even gave us the last advice for us. It was touching till Aunty Jo have to go and leave us. Took some pictures and it was left only us(my Classmates) in that chalet! everything was great! And I was having fun! So I decided to call my brother and ask him to come down to the chalet. He arrived 1 hour or so. And I greeted the rest to my friends. Joey, mummy and Adelyn said that my brother is a good looking guy and also Veeery tall!! Hahahahaha! So my lil brother did manage to have fun. Despite the fun we had, there was a misunderstanding between Didi and Faz but soon after, everything was back to normal! Time checked and it is 3 in the morning. My eyes were heavy and I needed to sleep. But I still hold on to it till me and Adelyn just couldn't take it anymore and we went inside. It was dark and cramp inside! Everybody was sounded asleep. Me and Adelyn were trying to find space to sleep till we saw Shahril enjoying his bed on his own. We told him to move and make way for me and Adelyn.

And he did.. I ask him why he was like so gloomy and sad at the same time? And he reply that he was missing ..... Hehehehe! Awww... How adorable!! Anyway, it was damn squeezy and Adelyn gave up! so I just lie down beside Shahril thinking that we could sleep, (Btw, there was a gap in between alright aisah, so don't think of anything hehehehee!) but we were so damn fucking wrong! At around 5 plus am, huda and the rest just came back from, im not sure exactly, and when they went inside the chalet, they were making alot of noise!! (No offence guys!) Until it woke me and Shahril up. After they all when out, I asked Shahril whether he could sleep, and he said that he can't! so do I! My eyes which were heavy, suddenly were wide awake! So me and Shahril talk and laugh non-stop till I said this "Time checkeeed: its 5.44am! And we can still talk and laugh and make noise inside the chalet. ril we're like sniffing laughing gas! WTF! We're suppose to SLEEP DAMMIT!" then we laugh non-stop! even if the jokes aren't funny, we continue to laugh as well! Like WTH! soon after Moo join us in one bed. And this time Shahril felt squeezy so he sacrifice the bed for me and Moo to sleep! Thanks BRO!!

So it was still hard for me to sleep when everything started to get chaotic outside. Im not sure what the guys were playing, but it seems to be fun! Then suddenly there was a loud "THUMP" at the front door. It seems that one of them might have been dare of something. To cut the story short, Hilmi when inside and ask some of them to get up to let the others whom have not sleep the whole night. cause the chalet was small and there was like more then 10 people who attend the chalet. So only half of them got to sleep. the other half which included Hilmi were outside being considerate to let the others sleep first! Since I have already get to feel the bed, I decided to get up and go out to let the rest whom have not sleep the whole night to go in first! so we exchange places. Hilmi fought with Jie Yi but after that the situation calm down. So I sat outside, till like 10 plus am. Hilmi make a rule that if anybody just can't take it anymore and want to sleep, just wake anybody up and take turns to sleep on the bed! This is to being considerate with others and also being fair to one and another! So Shahril woke Moo and Didi up so that I could sleep cause he saw how sleepy I was and how bad my eyeback is. And yes I conquer the bed ALONE!! Woohoo!! well as for half of the class, they wanted to go back home as they only stay for one night. So its left with 8 people in the chalet!!

2nd Day: half of the class were gone and it was left me, Adelyn, Faz, Shahril, An, Hilmi, Man and Joey in that chalet! cool or what!!! I woke up roughly around 1245pm! So that means, I have only 2 houurs of sleep!! Shahril and hilmi weren't still asleep yet. till, everybody had their shower and they sleep soundly. an had to attend some business for a while he told us that he will be back at night. On the other hand, Man and Joey wanted to go out to meet mummy(Sim Yee) outside. So they too when off. So it was left me, Adelyn and Faz who were wide awake! We spent the entire day watching Tv, making alot of noise, till Hisham and his friends come and visit the chalet! Hilmi also woke up and entertain them while Shahril was so sound asleep! We continued to watch th tv, such as ELLEN DGENEROUS! Btw, my sister text me saying that I won't get to watch as Ellen interview Robbert Pattinson when she forgots that Chalet do obtain a TELEVISION! Dumb Ass! We laugh, making alot of noise, while Hilmi keep going in and out by switching off the television yet Shahril is DEAD sleeping! Damn!! How tired he could be! So yeah! We had fun spending quality time together and it was like a slumber party for us inside!! Woo hoo!!

the whole bloody day, we watched tv till one of them said that they wanna go explore at the "Red house" I was busy watching CSI Miami which is one of my Favourite shows! Weee.. and everybody was getting restless. even after CSI Miami, everybody was still doing their own stuff. I thought I want to go stright to bed cause the next day, we have to wake up really early for us to prepare to check out. Not even me, Shahril and An were also damn tired. But Faz and Adelyn and Hisham insisted that we should go there. I was already lying on the bed. An was the 1st person w/o being force same goes to Shahril. Then it was my turn! I didn't want to. But they force me! At first Adelyn pull my leg to get rid off me from the bed. then Hisham took off the blanket. Hisham gave me the warning at first telling me not to test his patience or else he would carry me. I burst into laughter saying that he can't carry me cause he was too skinny and if so, I will fall on him straight flat on him which will eventually hurt his back. Then Shahril came and told me that if Hisham can't, He can. And so he did carry me!! I was like Fcuked up. And had no choice and took Boifee's jacket which I bring along and wore it.

It was 1am and along the way we met Sharkill walking with his friends! We only have 1hr to explore that empty house before 2am we have to reach to the entrance of the gate if not, we have to pay $2 for entrance and none of us brought money along.. When we reached there, we taught that we should go in 4 by 4! So Hilmi, Hisham, An and Shahril when in. When Shahril just finish climbing the other side, police came, and we ask them to run. Luckily, we just on time. So the police screen only the 4 of us!

Police: What are you guys doing here?
Me: We were just walking around here.
Police: Did any of your friends climb in?
Me: Nope, I swear! Cause we were just looking at that house.
Faz: Yeah! Cause we were tremendously bored at the chalet so we decided to walk around here.
Police: You guys should know that you aren't allow to go in there regardless there's ghost or drug addicts or murderers inside there. You may never knnow what happened.
Me: don't worry! We don't even dare to go inside that building. We are girls. How possible of us to go in there?
Adelyn: Ya! And how do you expect us to climb that gate?
Police: Ya true enough. If me, I also don't dare to go inside. Btw, how you come to know of this place?
Me: Well we heard it alot from our friends. So we decided to check it out by ourselves.
Police: Alright, Im going to let you guys out but you have to fill in the particulars.
All: Alright!
Police: Alright I think you guys should turn back and go back to the chalet. Are you guys alone or there's more?
Faz: Actually, there's more but they ditched us behind!
Police: Ok! Just remember what I said. And be careful!

so the police were gone. But the guys were still stuck inside! We thought that the police had already left. But we were wrong. Luckily I checked properly and see that the petrol car is still there. Adelyn msg them to hold on for a while. We did wait for the police car to go. And luckily they eventually when off. So the guys quickly climb their way out! That was really a close call! "PHEW" Time checked and its already 1.32am. So I told the rest to go back to the chalet cause time is running out! So we walk our way back to the chalet. We reach the entrance at 1.47am. And it was a close call! Seriously that is one lesson for us to learn. When we reached the chalet, I decided to hang around for a while then when to head to bed. I didn't realise that I was asleep till my alarm woke me up at 7.30am!

3rd Day: Damn!!! time fly so fast without realising! And the chalet was a BLAST!!! It took a few hours for them to wake up. Shahril was the first person to bath, follow by me. Then woke the rest up. Time for us to go. I was still sleepy! My 3 days at the chalet was fcuking fun! till, I was at the MRT. I took out the MP3 and wanted to hear my music! And I can't switch it on!! DAMN!! Luckily, I have my ECLIPSE to accompany me along the way!!

Well I guess I stop here. Cause from what I see, its damn long!!! Hehehehe! See ya!!

LEFT4DEAD 2

2010-03-15T00:02:00.002+08:00

So 2 days back he was the hero of the day! I receive a called from my god brother asking me whether I was bored or not. The real reason why he called me was because they were short of people. Still don't get what I mean?? PLAYING LEFT4DEAD 2!! HELL YEAH!!! I was jumping up and down, quickly have my bath and straight when to Woodland! There was Use'ree, Bem, Azeek and me!! We had lots of fun playing that game!! ARGH!! Sorry no pictures were taken as I was damn lazy thus I was having so much fun playing! But there was consequences I have to bare. For instant, Bem, I have to be his victim! He was the nosiest one always saying "DOK! DOK! DOK!! DOK!! TOLONG AKU!! AKU KENE MAKAN!!" Meaning: Help him cause he's been eaten! Well, as for me, I always get eaten by the infected one and it irritates me to the core! Azeek was the brave one! All of them are using guns only he use a samurai with just one CUT! cool huh?! Use'ree "Nk step macam paham" by using the saw!! Wakakakaka! I swear it was hilarious! thanks Bem for treating me!! Im waiting for the next game! Follow me??

Alright! today marks the day that Im going to have a class chalet.. I still haven't packed my back and its 2.15pm!! DAMN!! I know Im going to be late!! Haish! GTG!!! Wave at me if you see me!

*How does he know that it was Bella all the time?

A random post..

2010-03-13T17:46:00.007+08:00

Sesshoumaru! My hot hunk!

The red cape, its Inuyasha!

BORED, BORED, BORED!!! so I guess I'll post another one. Anyway its been a long time since I updated my blog cause I've been busy with my exam so since exams are OVER and its a HOLIDAY, I'm Free.. I guess... Hmmm... So you guys may be wondering what those pictures are right? Hehehehehe!! Well that is my one and only INUYASHA!! Which I've been dying to know what is going to happened to the villain. The episode seems to be never ending. You guys can say whatever you wanna say about me being childish! And the truth is, I am CHILDISH! And I'm proud to be one although I'm going to be 19, I don't CARE!!! I still watch Ben 10 and my Favourite cartoon character is Stitch! LOL!! Anyway despite reading the book Eclipse, I watch this anime cartoon which make so engrossed in the character so much! Yeah I know I'm silly.. Bla, Bla, Bla! But what can I can do? Nur Amalina is born like that! HELL YEAH!!

The other day boifee kept telling my sister and my god bro to remember the promise that he have told to the both of them. I was there listening to everything! Obviously I was the only one which is left out. So I pester boifee to spill out the beans and he told me this " I'm going for a holiday with Kak Ani and abg Khai at Gold Coast, Australia for 1 MONTH!!!" I was like, WTF? One whole bloody month? WOW!!! Thats like super duper long! Worst than my 6 days to Bandong! I felt kinda happy for him that he is going for the holiday but at the same time lonely! DAMN! But at the same time feel so FREE!!!!!!!! HELL YEAH!! But I don't advantage to boifee obviously!! I still love him! So the promise that my god brother and my sister made to him was: "Please take care of lina for me. Tell me once I'm back whether I chatted with anybody at MSN, Or go out with any other guys." That part freaks me out! I'm like "Are you going to held me as a hostage now? For goodness sake!!!! I'm not going to do anything the least I could do is going out with my girlfriends. Clubbing? Nah...! Going out with any other guys? WHO?? Who else I've got? SHEESH!" He's getting really paranoid now!!!

even if he is gone for that bloody one month, I can't do anything I want! DAMN!! Eyes are all watching on me!! But boifee told me its not confirmed yet. So yeah.. I thought I wanna use that one month to gout with my friends to catch things up or work or anything.. I guess I was wrong..

A book over him

2010-03-12T17:17:00.006+08:00

Currently, I've been occupying my time reading this wonderful book which really occurs in my life right now. Even though some of the stories may not be related, but most of the stories inside are. There's one time when I wrote at twitter that my book was confiscated by some idiotic brother of mine. He is none other than MUHD SHAHRIL! Well during my studying period everybody was busy studying while I was in my own world reading this book which seems to be addictive every single time I open it! And I find it hard to even close it! While I was busy reading, Azura gave me a warning to close the book. I didn't listen. I carry on reading. Azura warn me for the 2nd time and I still ignore. Azura had enough of my nonsense and told Aisah about it. At first Aisah ask me to study and I ignored her warning too. she then took my book and ask me to study. I pleaded her to give back. But she wouldn't listen. She told me that she will give back once lesson's finished!

When lesson finished, me, Azura and Aisah were the last to go out. Then came Shahril. I was just so happy to take my book when he snatched it away from me! I was like pleading and begging to give back when Shahril told me this "If I give this book back to you, I know you won't be studying so might as well I keep it for you till exams are over!" In my heart, I was cursing and swearing but on the other hand, I quite agree with him. I'm certain that I won't be studying. So thanks bro!! and also to Aisah and Azura! If not, I guess, I won't be studying. But don't worry I got my book back!! Wee!!! I find out that Shahril was reading the book too!!! WTH!! And he even say it was addictive. At first he was reluctant to give back the book. But I told him that I will bring the book during chalet I hope! Wakakakaka! So yeah, and I continued..

well I can tell you guys why the story have to do with my life. I'm not saying that I'm corny or what. But I find it true actually when I really read the book. Bella was obviously me! Who is in the centre of everything. Who wants peace in life. But confused in making decision. Edward(Boifee) who is really calm and relax and don't get angry easily who loves Bella(Me) for his entire life but at the same time kinda control Bella(me) from seeing Jacob(Bestie). Who thinks that Jacob(Bestie) is a hot headed werewolf and just dangerous! When Bella(me), who loves both of them dearly, find it hard to just separate with the both of them. Edward(Boifee), who is the love of her life and Jacob(Bestie) who is her one and only bestie whom never fails to make Bella(me) feel young again. If "Atin" were to read this, the only thing I could do is just smile. At the same time, the wounds have not been healed. Asking boifee to read this kind of book?? FORGET ABOUT IT! He is least interested in books! SHEESH!

Well you guys should read it too.. Or catch up with the movie which is coming soon in Singapore!! And I'm waiting for that opportunity to watch it! I don't care with whom but as long I'm watching that movie is good enough for me! Every single time I read that book, my heart keeps beating fast and seriously just reminded me of him. Wondering how is he doing? And how's life going? The truth is, whenever I read his blog, I feel kinda jealous. Not because that he goes out with another girl! SHEESH!! But I'm just jealous that somebody can make him happy rather than I do, like how we used to be. But nevertheless I'm happy at the same time that he is moving on slowly and getting up from the GREAT FALL! Instead I should thank the girl who has been accompanying him when he is in need of help most! Thank you! Please take care of "Atin" for me. "Hahahaha" I know that he could be a pain in the ass but he's just a really great guy! And I know you known him longer than I do.. Thanks.........

You guys may be wondering what does this picture got to do with my life. Like I said, a single picture tells a thousand stories. Well right now, my life ain't perfect and so does everybody else. My life may look beautiful on the outside, like those background scenery above but deep inside, my life are full of thorns like those branches. Yeah I know I sound a bit lame. But nevertheless, life have to go on for me. Like it or not, my destiny lies right above me. "HE" who have jotted down my life. "HE" whom knows every single move I make. "HE" who ensures our lives. "HE" who hold our souls and may be eliminated at any time as "HE" wish. "HE" whom we Muslims called ALLAH s.w.t! Everybody may think that life is unfair. Well it does if you chose the wrong path. Why is it so hard for us to choose the right paths? And why we are so easily influenced by others? Haish.. Life, is just a mystery. Let the past be history, today the present and let the future be a mystery for us to unfold.....

Yankies~

2010-03-10T20:36:00.004+08:00

I can tell that boifee have changed to the better but I still find him quite annoying sometimes! Wakakaka! But I don't blame him cause I know that he truly love me deeply and the truth is that I love him too. But one thing that I realise..... I've changed. Changed the way I talk to boifee, how I easily get irritated by him, how I try to so called "Get away from him" and so on and so forth. Yeah I know I'm cruel. At least I realise my mistake unlike SOME PEOPLE who don't! I don't know what's wrong with me actually nor how I could express this feeling of mine. I can be so fickle minded. Seriously i just don't know what I want in life. Its seems to be confusing in whatever I do.

Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to break out of something to free myself. Cause I just feel that I'm not free of doing anything else except to spent time with boifee. I hardly sit at home nowdays cause I spent time with boifee. Mom have been nagging at me non-stop. How I wish I could explain the real truth to her but I know she won't believe me anyway. I miss talking to mom and dad. But silence keep us apart. When I told boifee that I don't want to meet him today and just sit at home, he thinks I'm like playing a trick on him when I'm not. When he realise that I was not kidding, he starts to think all the negative things that he could think of. And he "Release" me, he will initially call me like every 10 mins or 30 mins or so. Just to check if I'm home or not. I really do love boifee. And he even changed for the better. But the truth is..... I think boifee is getting a lil bit "Paranoid" I know this word seems a lil bit harsh for him but I don't know which word to just describe him. I think I need to stop. I just need to find myself. I feel kinda lost right now.

*I'm starting to think "Have you really forgotten about me?"

A bad LOST~

2010-03-04T22:10:00.005+08:00

Sometimes in life you have to make sacrificial! And I've already did it but not once but twice! A sacrificial that most of my friends know that I can't bare with it. Let me unfold a story that's deep within my heart. I think that it is time for me to tell every single one. Cause I've lost someone who I could even pour my heart too. He's heart is like one with me. He doesn't own me physically neither mentally right now. But he owns my heart! And he is my one and only bestie. I know that I've spoken of him I think more than 5 times I guess in my blog?And I guess that I even told you guys that I've alreay lost him a few times? I don't want to speak to soon that I lost bestie totally but yesterday I get to call bestie for that one last time. And surprisingly it was boifee who ask me to call. I believe in this word "Jealousy" but that word is not like any other word. Jealousy? hmmm... Id on't blame boifee bout that but I still don't understand.

I didn't meet bestie behind his back? Nor I kiss bestie on the cheeks. Nor I webcam with him even if Im allowed to do so.. I was just following orders. Boifee ask me these ques every single day and I answer him truthfully. "Who are you msging with?" I ans "Bestie!" Boifee's tone was still alright but I guess that his heart is raging on fire. But the important thing is I TOLD HIM THE TRUTH didn't I? So what when wrong? At first, boifee gave me and bestie the greenlight to contact each other. But he told me that I can't webcam or called bestie. And I lisentened to him! What more does he want? I just hate guys not fufilling their promises! He ask me to let go of bestie and I did it! But he seems to be not satisfy with something. He asked me "Are you willingly to let go of bestie for the sake of me or truthfully?" And I reply "I let go of bestie just for your own sake." And he was still not happy!!! The truth is that he wants me to let go of bestie willingly when he knows that I can't! Its his wish for me to let go of bestie not me! This is just insanity!!!

Like I said to boifee. "You being selfish cause you want me all by yourself!" I'm just lost of words. No words could be describe how I feel.. Only the "ABOVE" know.. I'm going to let you guys think about it.. Secretly and silently............

Just Pictures..

2010-02-24T21:54:00.018+08:00

You're READY??

From old to new pics! Lets go!

A picture tells a thousand stories. So right now there's more than 10 pictures being displayed here so just guess how much stories have been written since last year. Many stories have been told. Like I said, LIFE.. Its like a book of novel!

Meet me Halfway!

2010-02-22T15:37:00.004+08:00

This past few days there's test going around in ITE CLEMENTI. And I'm seriously like FCUKED up right now. Cause nothing goes inside my brain. My brains are totally condemned due to some reasons. Only certain people may know about it. Anyway, this coming Wednesday there will be WTB. And guess what? Im still not studying. I'm happily sitting down infront of lappy typing to you guys.. I may look happy at school nowdays cause I know that they are the only one who could make smile sincerely and make me laugh too! But deep down... Im in deep thoughts.. I just don't know what to say to myself. A wise one ever told me "In life, you have to think positive so that you have the strength to carry on with your life. Don't ever think negative towards yourself cause that's the part where it will bring down your encouragement to move on with life and in the end, you'll stuck there with no where to go but just being depress in life and start blaming that the WORLD IS UNFAIR!"

There are a part in my life right now!

Alright, I'm lost of words maybe next time I'll post to you guys.. MAybe not know, not later.. Just sooner or later you will find out... For the time being, AMigos!!

Not Active

2010-02-16T17:26:00.005+08:00

Aisah

Yeah.. Im back! I'm just not active at blog like I used to. I just got better thinks to do! So many things have happened in life without me realising! Aisah and Azura told me that I've changed alot as in the better! Thanks to Aisah! Whenever I read her blog, I feel like crying. Maybe its her songs or is it maybe the things she type at her blog which a lot of people intend to read her blog. I just see her as someone special in my heart.. Like a role model I should say. People should look up to her and treat her with more respect! Sometimes when I think back what I've done in the past, is totally cruel and YES I'VE CHANGED PEOPLE!! HUMANS MAKES MISTAKES BUT I BELIEVE IN 2ND CHANCES!! Its not the end of the world. Some people just can't take the blame and just run away from reality. I've been there, done that! But seriously, your problems will not be solve yet get worser every single day. With the thoughts in your head, with the feeling of guilt in your heart. EVERYTHING! But slowly, I'm changing to be a better person.

My bestie!

So the other day, I had a fight with boifee. Cause he caught me lying about me chatting and web caming with bestie. Well to him I did a big sin to him. But to me, I'm just being myself.. He gave me a long message early in the morning of Valentines Day... I don't know how he get to know about it but he ask me to forget about bestie. And ask me to choose between him and bestie. Obviously I choose boifee! The reason I didn't tell boifee is because I already know the answer which is a "NO!" I don't know how many times that I've told him that I love him deep down in my heart but he never listens to that part.. He only listen whereby that I've committed a crime. That's all!

My Baby!!

" Baby, I know sometimes you are browsing at my blog.. If you happened to read this, I LOVE YOU!! But the truth is, I CARED for BESTIE!! Get it?? There's a difference between LOVE and CARED. But you don't cared that part right? You just want me to forget about bestie! YES I WILL... Sometimes I HATE YOU baby! But not because of who you are but your EGO which makes you a man today! You know that I love you. You know that I will never leave you. I just love the way you are! Even though that your condition of your leg is like that! I know, you can't accept for who you are right now! And I know how you feel but baby, you have to accept fate! You have to be strong baby!! You just have to have FAITH in me Baby! If you keep doubting me, how are to remain strong in the first place? I leave it to you. But no matter what baby, your name, "SyafiqKAZUYA" is craved in my heart. It ain't matter if its bleeding or crushed, that name will always remain there....

Lastly, me...

Sometimes, I just want to spread my wings and just fly away from here. But I know that I need to face reality and face it no matter how hard life can be... EVEN IF YOU HAVE TO LOSE SOMEONE YOU CARED OR LOVE MOST..... THAT'S SIMPLY LIFE!!

Welcome Back~

2010-02-02T23:22:00.004+08:00

Hey ALL!!!!!

Im still alive peeps!!!!! Weee~ Actually I'm waiting for my lil cuzzin to change my skin then I will update my blog. As per normal, life have its ups and downs.. But this time with a lil twist to it!! Wondering what it is?? You guys have to find it yourself.. Personally ask non-other than me! Hell Yeah!! So recently, many things have happened obviously. Im quite happy with my baby! We just celebrated our 4 months! Thank god!! We are still alive! HAhahahahaha! Too many things too share, too many secrets I've kept? But I don't share it here in my blog.. I kept my secrets safe with me.. In my heart, in my diary? With my Friends? Who knows...

I'm not being sacarstic. Im being truthful. Sometimes I wonder why must people come and go in life? I don't understand even when that person is attached or not. Its understandable if your boifie is the jealous kinda type.. For example, like me! HEll Yeah Baby!! Im speaking the fact! I know that the TRUTH hurts but face it baby!! I don't know for how long must I keep it to myself.. And just gave you the sacarstic smile of mine which you don't even realise.. You should know that I have a bestfriend.. And you should know who.. I don't understand why must you be jealous? And in the first place, why the hell I even post it in the blog?? well I just have to wait for the right time, the right moment to burst it all out.. Cause seriously I'm losing somebody I could even talk to.. Its not that I don't want to share it with you baby.. Its just that I find that you are just not interested to even listen to my sorrows.. You don't even share your probs with me hunny. Then what's the purpose of me being your girlfriend? Get my point??

Reminiscing other times of life

2009-12-29T22:26:00.004+08:00

Hey YAW!!

I'm not in the mood right now cause of something!! Gosh!!! It makes my heart boil!! But if I explain it to you guys I swear you guys would be like "CHEH!! That small matter you want to make a big fuss about it?" LOL!! Anyway countdown is approaching a few days time and I'm working on the NEW YEAR'S EVE!! WTH!! But nevertheless I got another one hour to celebrate countdown! Thank god I'm not doing closing on that day or else!! I'm going to celebrate another year at work! Cause last year I celebrate countdown at work too!! And I thought that I wanna escape this time.. But too bad, my plan FAIL!

So I have think it through. Over and over again. Listening to each and every one's opinion on whether should I take my bike license or not.. So in the end.. I have to let go my precious DESIRE and go on taking a car license instead. I know this is going to be a tough life ahead for this coming new year.. When everybody else said that" A brand new year, a brand new life, brand new friends?" Well but more new troubles and obstacle to go through again! Its the same THING! Over and over again! There's not even a year that people say that there is gonna be PEACE when actually the EARTH is truly sick without anybody realising it. Instead people are enjoying life as it is.. When people make resolution to improve life when actually they are repeating the same mistakes over and over again.. What's the used of this resolution! When human now days are so lazy and can't be bother!

In this world, there's no such thing as PEACE cause the actual truth is that people live in fear. The rich gets richer, the poor gets poorer! And every single human being in this world thinks for themselves! Cause when the world has come to an end, there's not even one human being who is willing to sacrifice his/her life for the other. Cause all of them wants to SURVIVE even though they know that they can't survive! See how selfish this humans are? And still, I wanna celebrate countdown, when there are much better things to do... HUH A new year begins?! Cause for all I know there will be much more problems and obstacles I have to face in the future.. Resolution doesn't work for me either..

Back FROM BANDONG~

2009-12-25T16:37:00.002+08:00

Apologies!!!

First and foremost I would like to apologies to Fyezul for losing his handphone!!! Sorry dude!!! Thousands of apologies! Anyway life isn't that great anyway.. Been bored at home most of the time! But I had fun with my baby and his CUZZINS ARH! LOL! Trying my best to work most of the time.. My assignment for my project is already finished! THANK GOD! Hmmm.. I seriously have no plan for countdown.. And hoping that I could earn enough money to at least go and have a party!! I don't CARE!! I wanna have fun cause this December holiday is like a nightmare to me.. "Asyik BOOOOOSSAAAAN!!" Anyway sorry for not updating my blog for like a few weeks cause Im trying to find some one to change my blog skins! But too bad, I can't find 1! Right now, all I do at home is roting till I don't know when.. Kinda miss school I guess.

*In life, money do make you happy.. Like whtever other people says that money won't make you happy either, that's a fraut! Cause from what I can see, whenever people is in need of money or they seriously don't have money in their pockets, all they do is to frust, scold and the most popular option, COMPLAINT! don't you people agree with me? That's why most people work to gain money so they could go out, spend their money to satisfy their needs! Then they would feel SATISFACTION!*

As for myself, I keep telling my ownself that I wanna enroll my bike.. But it seems that I have to go through a lot of obstacles along the way! If only I have my own transport, woudn't it be great? Riding your own bike... Travelling around... I really hope that by the end of December I would really enroll my bike.. I have to put my shopping spree aside first! Casue I just realise that there are more important things to settle rather than shopping! Haish! I hope that the salary that I got this month will at least have enough for my enrollment, payment that I have to settle and not forgetting to party.. Plus I wanna purchase a new sim card!!! FARK!!! Do you think it would be enough?

My last DAY~

2009-12-09T00:43:00.003+08:00

JHOOM BARA BARA JHOOM!

Today is the day that marks my last day in Singapore.. So you won't be seeing me update my blog for 6 days! Seriously, I can't sleep, I haven't pack my bag! Nil! When my brother on the other hand have already packed his bag! He was really fast! OMG!! Alright... I'm missing my baby right now although we took alot of pictures just now.. A lot of people came to visit me before I go! Wakakakakaka! I find it touching! Well An, Winnie, Lala, Apeez and Khai was there.. But Apeez and Khai got to go.. At least they wish me all the best!

I would like to thank the people who came down under my block! Thank you so much!

Hmm.. Since today is the last day Im gonna post, lets post about somebody that make my blood pressure rise up!! Well it just happened just now... Hmmm.. My brother had this ex who is only 16 years old and doesn't know much about life but already talk as if she has been living in this world for 30 years! WOW! Im "IMPRESS!" Ape maksod ko by "My one more worst, my ex percaye kate2 adeq angkt dier!"

WTF!!! HELLO! AKU KT SITU AKU TERASE TAU.. PSL EX KO WAS ABG AKU.. AND YOU DARE TO SAY IT INFRONT OF ME.. OF COURSE AKU TERASE PEDAS BETINE! KO YG PERANGAI TK BTL NK BYK BUNYI!! ASL KO TK SALAH MATAIR AKU YG CLAIM DIER NGN ABG AKU TWIN? ASL AKU EHK? ABG AKU BKN SLALU SHARE MASALAH DIER NGN AKU.. APE SAK MAKSOD KO! AKU ADE SUROH ABG AKU BREAK NGN KO KE? HELLO GIRL!! WATCH YOUR BLOODY MOUTH OKIE! AKU DIAM2 KO PIJAK KPLE AKU.. KO NK MINTAK SIMPATI PE NGN BDK2 LAIN.. NK SEMUE GO KO NYE SIDE? APE KO DPT SAK?! KO TKKAN DPT PAPE LAR.. KO INGT TAU GIRL.. KO DAH BERUBAH!!!! KO ONLY 16 NK BUAL BYK! CB NYE SIAL!!!!!

Planning to change Skin!!!

2009-12-06T23:09:00.003+08:00

BOOM!!!

I need somebody help to change my blogskin... Hmmm. Anybody willing to help me? Till now I still don't understand how to change the blog skins.. K Whatever!!

HELL YEAH!!!! 3 More days to Bandong BABY!!! I can't wait.... Seriously! But when I think back, I feel that 6 days is too long. Haish.. But nevermind.. I think I need a vacation to rest my brains!!

Anyway, I just came back from chilling with my baby, Bem, my sister and her boifie. Well baby just came back from Kazuya escort. After the escort, he came straight down to my place to chill. I guess he must be very tired. Hmmm.. On the other hand, Bem took the taxi to come down my place. While my sister's boifie travel with his bike! Alright 2 days back I watch a movie with baby then the following day I watch a movie with Bem. LOL!! We took turns!

I watch NINJA ASSASIN with baby while I watch ZOMBIELAND with Bem. Both story is a must watch show!! Seriously! ITS FREAKING AWESOME!!! HELL YEAH!!! Weee~ I had fun! Haish.. School start as per normal tomorrow.. And I'm having a test on Tues! (TEST LAGI!) OMG!! How much more must I go through all this? I want to get this done and over with!!!

Wiket, Wiket~

2009-12-03T22:16:00.004+08:00

AUTOMATIC!

Hey dudes and babes out there!! (LOL! WTH!!) So, I just came back from my normal routine which is to hang out with my LOVE and my BROTHER! Hahahahaha! Usually, I'm the one who will always come down to either Woodlands or Marsling. So today its their turn to come down to my place! YIPEE!!! SWEET VICTORY! Anyway, school have always been fun! Always talk crap in class with my clique.. Nothing else better to do.. I don't know why but recently this past few days I'm just not in the mood to study. Although there is so many things to do like my upcoming test and my project. Speaking about test, my test for WRITING FOR BUSINESS is tomorrow but I'm taking my own sweet time writting in to you guys. Like WTH right? I know! Hahahahaha!

Well basically, the topic of today is going to be simple alright.. I just need to list down what I wanna buy at Bandong.. For those who don't know, in 5 days time, I'm going to Bandong with my aunt! HELL YEAH!!! Im so gonna shop till I drop.. So here's the list:

Buy baby's present (2)

Buy abg's birthday present (1)

Buy my bitches some souvenirs (4)

Buy my manager a mug at bandong starbucks! (1)

Buy Baby's mom kain batik! I don't know where Im going to find 1! (1)

Buy cik ayu necklace! (1)

I think that's all I have to buy.. If I could remember I shall list down more! Hmmm.. So far I need to buy like 10 things already.. Hmmm.. Would it be enough for myself, Im' not sure... But I'll see what I can do alright!!! Anyway, I'm so gonna miss my LOVE so MUCH!!!!!!!! Haish!!! Its kinda exciting when you go somewhere far from home but eventually, you will turn back to where you belong! I just hope that I just won't be home sick for 6 days missing my home and the rest of my buddy! But at the same time I feel so excited and anxious to go to Bandong! Hmmmm.......

The Cheerleading

2009-12-02T17:59:00.004+08:00

READY!!!?

So the other day I posted you guys about me and my whole classmate went to watch the NEW MOON. So I didn't briefly explain what happened actually after the movie...

[FLASHBACK]

After the movie, basically, me, Aisah and Adelyn were hungry so they decided to buy food at Long John Silver. After that, we went upstairs to find a sit. Well Vivo City got this place where all of us could hang out! Hmmm DUUH~ I guess all of you should know right? Anyway, we sat down after the long search. Then came along Didi, Moo and Zizi who was also looking for sits. In the end they also join us. After Aisah and Adelyn finish up their food, they decided to camwhore, using Aisah's camera. At first we took pictures as per normal.. Then Aisah and Adelyn came up with the Cheerleading pose!! OMG!!! It took us like more than 10 times of doing it!! Many of us fall badly. But luckily there was no injury. Aisah fall the worst! Seriously I can't stop thinking about it! Untill now, whenever I saw Aisah face I would just laugh on my own.. If only Azura and Faz was there, I think they would laugh too! Alright then I think that's it for today! GTG!

Msn Problem~

2009-11-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

FARK!!!

WTH!!!!! I can't log in to my MSN while everybody esle can! What's wrong with the connection! DARN!!!! Alright I know that I've been missing these days.. Seriously, I'm like so lazy to update. Hahahahaha! Anyway this is what happen on the 27 of November!

There was a class outing again with the class.. We watched NEW MOON! (Sorry Bitches!) Well it was the class choice.. Well actually aunty Jo gave us 2 choices.. Its either the New Moon or 2012 if Im not wrong.. I forget the other one.. Alright never mind about that.. Well anyway, I wore my SCHOOL UNIFORM okie! SERIOUSLY!!!!! I felt ackward at first but after a while I'm like used to it... Inside the movie theatre, I was like so frustrated because of JACOB's HOT BODY and the handsome, not forgetting EDWARD CULLEN!!! Omg!! I can't decide which to choose.. Well, in the first place, Adelyn and Aisah were fighting over EDWARD CULLEN.. After watching the show, Adelyn change side! She chose JACOB over his HOT BODY! I'm like in the middle cause as per normal, I don't bother.. Hmmm... Overall, the show I rated 5 stars! But I so hate the ending part!!!! All I could say for the last part was what EDWARD told BELLA "Marry me BELLA!" Then it ended!!! I was freaking mad!!!!! Oh well, I guess I have to wait for ECLIPSE then.. Speaking of which, when the hell is my mother going to buy the book!? I'm like so curious over here wondering what happens next! Haish!

After the movie, the 3 A(s) went out to buy some food.. Well not me.. I was short of cash so I just share some of the food. (Thanks guys!) A moment later, Didi, Moo and Zi arrive.. Soon after they joined us! We talked craps as per normal, then everybody wanted to camwhore.. Thanks to Adelyn and Aisah idea of the cheer leading pose.. We seriously do it! Well too bad, Aisah didn't upload the pictures cause her computer was really lagging badly.. Hahahahahaha! But its okie! Once she's upload, Im gonna upload it alright....

On the 28 November, was me and Baby's anni! Cool!!!! We are offitially 2 months!!! Hehehehehe! Well again we didn't get to celebrate it cause both of us were working for the any upcoming event. So when we want to go out, we can go out anytime! But we did get to meet after work! Yup... Hmmm.. I heard from him that I'm not be able to meet him for the next 1 week cause his mom told him not to go out often because of his SCHOOL ATTENDANCE!! HALOO BABY!!! Please ar! You want to chill out with your friends CAN! But make sure you be puntual when you come to school! ALWAYS and I mean ALWAYS be late for school! School starts at 8am you reach school at 11 plus! WEI!!!! ITE TAMP is not your school OKIE! I mean you don't OWNED that school! You come there to study.. Not coming to school like you one big minister or something! Hehehehehehe! Try to come early alright baby! Your attendance is getting BAD to WORST! And I'm worried about your upcoming test! Did you studied? Hmmm...

Today, after work, met up with the 3 BITCHES... Talk alot of things then went back home! We manage to catch things up a bit.. But I'm not satisfied! Hmmm.. Don't know when will we meet again.. Alright, I need to go... I think I type too much..

Im BACK!!!

2009-11-26T10:36:00.003+08:00

Im BACK!!!!

After all this while when my laptop crashed, at last, it SURVIVE the operation!!! Now, its back to normal. Well sorry I didn't post any pictures today cause Im in school and yesterday I was too busy updating other things.. Hehehehehe! Anyway, many things have happened! And we manage to celebrate Mira's birthday! It was a blast! playing rollerblates even though it rain heavily! But its okie! It was fun playing in the rain. I did gave my present to her and she love it! (I hope) Biel on the other hand couldn't make it as she have somthing going on in school! DAMN her school! But can't blame her as she is in her poly!

Alright, seriously, I don't have any story to tell. OH YEAH! Today, aunty Jo, my lecturer, is going to give us a treat.. Watching NEW MOON at VIVO!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!! NEW MOON BABY! YES! At last Im going to watch it today! alongside with my classmate. But I didn't bring my home clothes! But who the hell cares! Im not interested in my looks. Im interested in watching the movie!!! Hmmm.. Vivo city.. Its been long since I've been there..

Next, my love of my life!! My gegerl! Im happy as ever with him.. There are always ups and downs! But its okie, relationships is not perfect anyway! But we are improving! This sat is going to be our 2 months! And Im super duper happy! But we can't celebrate cause both of us are working.. Its okie!!!! There's a long way to go in our relationship, so take it slow baby!! YEAH!!! Hahahahahaha! No matter what I'm loving him!!!!!!

Moving on.... my close friend Clinton who use to be a regular customer at cine leisure at storey 9! Don't ask me what he usually do at level 9 but all of them including Clinton enjoys to hang out there to play games or watch movie! How I met him? Don't even ask! Cause its kinda complicated.. Actually its been long since we even contacted each other! And last month we manage to contact each other through TAGGED! Wakakakakaka! Its like a miracle like that! Oke its kinda lame I know. Alright Clinton is somehow a nice yet irritating! Sorry BUDDY! Hahahahaha! But seriously when it comes to his tiredness, he will sing and sing non stop to irritate me!!! OMG!!!! But when it comes for him to listen to my sorrowness. He will be my listening ears! Yup... I just hope that I won't lose him like I lose .... Haish! I just wish him all the best in life..

Alright, I gtg! Mrs Seam is nagging at me about using the com! Tc! Till then!

Maturity~

2009-11-09T12:46:00.002+08:00

Super SUBB!!

First and formost, I would like to tell to you guys that I won't be active in blogspot anymore.. BECAUSE of my DAMN LAPTOP!!! SHIT!!! Seriously.. I ask Clinton for help but he too can't do anything about it. Cause its got to do with the motherboard I guess.. On the other hand, My boifie would definitely be laughing at me and thus he likes it so much! So that I won't spend too much time on my laptop. Yeah Boifie! Reflect that to your own self! Wakakakaka! Haish! So many things inside my mind. So many things to type. But I can't elaborate! Hmmm..

Anyway, right now, I have a new obsession! Which is the camera NIKON D3000!!! I want THAT!!!!!! Seriously.. To practice my photographing skills!!! Weeeee~ OMG!! If I have that, I would treasure it and never let go!! LOL! Ermm.. My mind is blank! Can't think of anything else! Well gtg then... Till then..

A night to remember I guess~

2009-10-29T22:19:00.004+08:00

OMG!!! Im so dead right now!!!! Well not exactly today but on MONDAY!!! I got so many things in my head. Where as I got my OFA test, HRA test and my role play!!! I'm so stress right now. But I manage to study my HRA just now.. But just a bit. With the help of my Brother, Bem who help me understand the language of BUSINESS! Seriously! There was like provision, then comes contrary. New words that I've learn for today! Cool! Thanks Bem! Well along the way, I helped him too! Help him in MATHS! A subject that I didn't turn my back to. Wakakakakakaka! But I manage to make him understand the question unlike my hunny! Hey wait! When I think back, hunny is the same course as Bem but he forgotten about everything! And end up me doing the job! He is just like a girl!

Well just now in school, we did nothing much. Cause all of the girls started to do revision. Thank goodness that all was present. I meant my clique. There's not even a day that one of them would be missing. Hahahahaha! But they never fail to make me laugh! Yup that's right!! Anyway, just now we have like 2 hours plus break! Cool huh!!! Yeah I know!! LOL! So most of the time, we talk crap all the way! Like seriously! We were bored and there's nothing to do.. So we decided to make our own jokes!! It was damn funny! I even took their video! If you guys want to see just come and see me personally cause Im just too lazy to update! All day talking crap, making alot of noise under the void deck! Luckily there was no complain! YEAH!!!!! Lucky us! Well I think I need to go!!! Update you when I'll update you!! Weeee!!!

*I know its wrong for me to say this, but I miss my bestfriend! Seriously... But I know that one day we will be friends again..

LAzier than EVER~

2009-10-28T22:50:00.004+08:00

Yeah, Yeah I know that I've been M.I.A lately. Too busy with life I guess. Yeah! That's the only reason I could give you guys! But its true! Im not lying! Anyway, today is my 1st monthsary with my hunny!!! "Happy 1st monthsary!" We did nothing much. But just pouring our love towards each other! That's all! For all I know, we love each other so much. And that's it! Nothing more, nothing less. I'm just happy the way we are! Well, we had our fight just now. But everything is alright now. Normal couples are always like that! So its OK. Anyway, I really had fun today at school and enjoying my time with my hunny! It was sweet seriously!! So basically at school, Faz manage to come but Azura was missing this time. As per normal, we were the nosiest ones!! I can't stop laughing!! Day after day, I'm getting tired of school. But I can't lose hope easily!! Need to try my best! Cause my parents, my hunny, my friends have high hopes on me!! So I will try my best alright?

Enough about life and lets continue about my love story. So far, my life with SyafiqKAZUYA have been great!!! Seriously! We LOVE to tease each other! Right hunny? Hahahahaha! But one thing I like about him, is that its just hard for me to get angry at him easily! Seriously, every single time I look at his face, I would laugh! (Sorry hunny!!) But its the fact! Its as if his face tells me all! The pain, the misery, the confusion just disappear just like that! He never fails to make me laugh! Every single day, he will tell his grandfather story that will end up make laughing like a MAD woman!!!! Yes I admit that I laugh very loudly and rudely. But who the hell cares!? That's me! Hehehehehe! Anyway, I love calling my hunny "Gegerl" While he calls me "boboy!". The reason is so obvious! The time limit for him to get ready is much more worser than a girl! Further more, he always make me wait long hours!!! Isn't he like a girl? And Im being a guy! Hahahahahaha! LOL! So yeah, basically we took pictures on our monthsary! Well GTG! Till then!

*We may not look handsome nor beautiful nor we are a perfect couple but that's how I want it to be!

Feel the composure in the air~

2009-10-23T10:24:00.003+08:00

So right now, Im basically in school having Human Resource lesson. The teacher came a bit late. But I don't mind cause I get to use the comp. Hahahahaha! Anyways, I've been really busy these days! With school and work. Well I work mostly Friday, sat or Sun.. At least I have some time free to spend time with my baby!! Yeah! So, recently, me, Adleyn, Aisah and Azura went to Suntec City to accompany Aisah for her interview at Swensen's. Along

the way, we did camwhoring as usual!!! Girls!!!! What can I say? After all the gossip, the interview, we went straight to Marina Square!!! Cool lar seh! Drop by at my workplace to check my schedule and even get a free drink! Weeeeeee!!!! So enough of the so call window shopping.

Cause right now, I was thinking about something else! Hmmmm... Sometimes in life, when we think what we really want, we can't get it. And sometimes, you have to sacrifice your own happines to make others happy. Its true that you can do that to help people. But not always!! Cause you will be the one that will suffer. You know who Im reffering to. AISAH! This girl, shares the same birthday as me... 31st JULY 1991. The horoscope LEO. So, Aisah is very loving, noisy, strong, cheerful girl. She never fails to make the others laugh all the time. Macam makcik Bedah kirekan! Hahahaha! So yeah, she gets to know this one guy(As a friend! Nothing more!) And decided to share the story with her own girlfriends. Cut the story short, One of her friends now, contact the guy that Aisah was contacting. Cause the girl wanted the guys n.o badly! And yes Aisha gave it cause she knows that friends is more important then any other guys! But at the same time, I know that she is suffering deep down inside!

What her friend did to her was really mean! Seriously! She's willing to sacrifice that guy just to make that friend of hers happy! Not only once that the girl did that but a few hundreds of times I guess. So I have decided to help her to get to know with this one guy name Clinton. Clinton is a friend of mine! Well only the Bitches know how we met!! It was a long story. But now, I have my SyafiqKAZUYA. So I'm doing this favour to Aisah! But Aisah seems to reject. She told me that she is not in the mood. Seriosuly, I think she should make friends with Clinton. He is really a nice guy. Not forgetting a pure gentleman. He may have a piercing on his left eyebrow. But that doesn't matter. Its the heart that counts! But its up to Aisah to choose. And Aisah, sometimes its good that you sacrifice for people but you have to see whether that person really deserve it or not. Cause kite hidop untk sementare. Memang kite tk mengharapkan balasan dorang. Tetapi kadang-kadang kite pon nk rase bahagia! Sampai biler ko nk sacrifice kawan-kawan ko? Fikirlar! Cheh! NUR AMALINA DAH SPEAKING!!! LOL!!! Love my 3 bitches and my 5 Girls(Our names for the time being!) Got to go!!! AISAH BETTER READ THIS!!!!

Her Birthday~

2009-10-18T20:36:00.004+08:00

Alright so my syg's birthday is coming!!! Im still counting but silently! Hahahahahaha! I know how she hates counting on to her upcoming birthday! SYG KO MIRA!!! Lol! So and so for the past two days I've started working.. Looking forward for my pay!! LOL! Cause seriously I need cash.. Hmmm... Anyway been happily spending time with my hunny bunch! Thousands of apologies for not updating my blog. Cause seriously Im just too lazy to update. Thus nothing much have happened.. Just some misunderstanding. But everything is alright now! So im bad to being Hyper Active! Actually, Im not quite sure what to update today. Cause my mind is totally blank! Nothing!! Hahahahahaha! Well not exactly nothing. Hmmm.. Missing my SyafiqKAZUYA! Wakakaka! And not forgetting my 3 BITCHES! From what I know I'll be meeting them soon. But don't know when.

Cause everybody's schedule is tight! Yup that's right! Too tight too handle.. Mira who is busy working, Biel is busy with her school and work! While me is busy with her work too! LOL! OMG!!! Speaking about school, I sooo hate my time table!! Most of the time, Im going to finish at 5pm! WTH!!! That means Im going to be super busy! PLUS my work!!! Oh gosh! Weekends are going to burn!! Hardly got the time to spend time with my boifie. Haish!!! Gonna miss the hell out of him! What am I to do? That's life.. So yup. Going to buck up my studies, start my life anew this term! LETS GOOOO!!!!! I choose you SyafiqKAZUYA!!!

Misses~

2009-10-08T23:22:00.004+08:00

To whom it may concern!

So life as per normal! Nothing much..Got ups and downs like always.. I'm just confused sometimes with all the things I have in mind right now.. I miss my hunny bunch at the same time I miss my bestie.. Its been long since I contacted him. And like per normal I feel bad.. I just wish him all the best with his life right now! He and his new bestie! Im not critisising you bestie! But its the best! Its seems that you are not happy with me. And I kinda feel bad cause I hardly contact you nowdays. So yeah! Say whatever you want.. But I won't hold any grudges on you. Who am I to you anyways! Im just a nobody... And now I lose him.... The one I always call him BESTIEDEAREST! The friendship ended!

For 30th Sep

2009-10-01T14:31:00.003+08:00

MakDiKah!!

So yeah I was having training on the 30th sep when the other 2 bitches met up.. They waited for me to finish up. It was fun! So after a few mins waiting, I got my half break! When smoking with the Bitches for a while, then went to a wallet shop.. They've been trying to pester me to buy the wallet.. So Im like okie.. All of them chose their colours. Darling chose purple while sayang chose black.. Then it was left one.. Guess what!!! I have to DIE DIE take the colour pink!!!! WTF!!!! I don't like pink!! So Im still like reconsidering to taking the pink. But it was quite nice!(As in the design not the COLOUR!) YULGH!!! Pink ? OMG! I can't imagine myself using a pink wallet! Haish... Let me think again BITCHES!! Anyway, after choosing the wallet, I continue my training like another 30 mins more....Yipee!

So after finish training, we went to drink more starbuck!!! Caramel Frap, and white Mocha cream! Wakakakakaka! GELOJOH WAI!! So chit chatted.. then comes cam whore! We usually won't miss taking pictures with each other! LOL!! Yeah, more chit chatting... Then comes gossip! As per normal! GIRLS!! Duuh~ Yup, a few mins later we went back home.. Im still not satisfy girls!!! Can we meet again? Btw, "Ehk mira aka Pantat!! Please upload gmbr!!!! " Each and single one of it!!

Hari Raye 2009 ~

2009-09-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

TOMOI!!!

So on the 28 September I went out for a Raye Outing with my friends!! Including my sibling!!!! It was fun and bestie was there.. Everything went alright at first! We were smiling.. Disturbing each other! Hahahahahaha! Then as time past by.. I soon realise bestie wasn't himself no more.. It was my fault!! I'm sorie Atoi for neglecting you! How stupid of me! You came down to raye with me "Raye Bestie Outing Day!" And I ruin it! OMG!!! I was at wrong.. Im really sorie bestie for hurting you! I cry on the same day that we fought! Its like that was the worst nightmare for me! I won't want this thing to happened to us again! Enough is enough! Lets be friends again?! May I? For this rudeness that I've caused.. We should go out together! This time its for real! To spend time with my BESTIE! Could we Atoi??

Tremendously Bored?

2009-09-19T03:04:00.002+08:00

DEAREST!!!

"Hey yaw!!!!" That's what dearest always says! Haish.. All I can say is that I miss the web caming days.... The way we always chat.... The fights.. Hehehehehehe! When I think back, Its was kinda funny! Seriously.. I miss all of that.. I wish we were like we use to be! How I wish... But our ego... Haish! Only god knows! Hahahahahahaa! No offence Dearest! Anyway..Life have been busy these days! Preparing for Raya and stuff! Can't wait!! The last day of the fasting month!!! Wow! Time flies so fast yaw! Hahahahahaahahaha! Rendang, Lontong, Ketupat, Ayam Masak Merah, Sambal Goreng!! Foooo!!!!! There's going to be a feast!!!! Well I think that's it for today! I'm kinda tired with the training I had today! Oh yaa!!! Training! I forgot to tell.. Well currently.. I've started working.... But that's all I can say.. Cannot say that much yaw!! Hehehehehehe!

Friday

2009-09-15T20:10:00.003+08:00

Kimi-ice~!!

I wanted to post something on Friday but just couldn't! As per normal blog was creating problems! So anyway, Friday I manage to go out with my Bitches! Headed to Far East to help Sayang to buy her heels then headed down to Botak Jones near Cine leisure Cathay to break our fast there! Ate Fish and chips! Cool! Yup2!! Then send Darling to work. Met Fyezul and Khai to find Fyezul's bag at Heren! Hahahahahaha! Now that I know that Fyezul have different kind of taste. LOL! The "Bapok" and the "Primary school" Hahahahahaha! Only me, Sayang, Khai and of course Fyezul knows! Right Fyezul! Wakakakakaka! After all the shopping, at last we went back home! Heehs!

I miss my 3 BIATCH

2009-09-05T02:32:00.006+08:00

Misses!!!

The tears I shed every single night! Thinking what I've been doing lately.. Thinking what tomorrow will bring? Thinking about the past! Im so blinded by NOSTALGIA! I'm missing my 3 BITCHES!!! Im dying to meet you guys.. There are so many things I wanna talk to you guys... To share my problems! And I bet you guys too have something to say! We may be far apart but you guys are still close at my hearts! I think we all have something missing in our life darling! How I wish I could express my expression in words!! Seriously I want an outing guys! Just the 3 of us! No one else! We need to catch up in life!!! I need a shoulder to cry on right now!!!!

Ar!!! Im not only missing my 3 bitches but also my SE hunks! Hilmi, Slay, Didi, Farhan and Shahril! What happened to us? Seriously.. Everybody's changing, Showing our true colours.. Is that it? We're drifting, drifting than never before! Seriously, I miss Hilmi's punches and his singing.. I miss talking to Slay.. I miss Didi disturbing me(No offence Moo!).. I miss sharing my thoughts to Farhan and I miss Shahril playing his guitar! Where have it gone too? Or is it me avoiding you guys? Im trying to start a conversation with you guys.. But it seems that my mouth won't just open! Is it my fault? Or is it just a misunderstanding? Im confused guys! I want to start anew. Can we?

My dearest Atoi!!

2009-09-04T04:04:00.001+08:00

sorry for the bad posting! But blog seems to make problems again!
So Im sitting in the living room waiting for my mom to cook...
And I'm right here posting to you guys.. Weee~
Yup! I'm bored! Like the usual! But actually I want to dedicate this post to my dearest Bestie..
ATOI!

Hey dearest!!! I just hope that this ugly yet meaningful post will put some sense
and motivation in your life. I may be your pillar in this situation, and I may your lifesaver.
But Im still a nobody. Yet Im here to cheer you up. To make you smile, to make you live
life the fullest! Don't be sad and stay strong in whatever your situation may be.
Stand tall and face your problems like a man! You've all grown up dearest..

I know you are strong to face this kind of problems. Cause I know you can make it!!
I BELIEVE in you dearest! Don't let your guard down!!! Thats all I can say dearest! Just smile
and stay happy always! May god always protect and love you dearest!!!

Whenever you need a shoulder to lean on... Main Hoon Na(I'm always here!)

Me and My Bloody New hair cut~

2009-08-30T02:10:00.003+08:00

KimIce!!!!

Sorry didn't update yesterday.. Was kinda busy with life! LOL! I couldn't remember that much what I did! But this one thing I'm certain that I can tell you guys! I just cut my HAIR!!! My long, long hair!!! Argh!!! I was force to cut!!!!! Don't ask who!! And I bloody don't like it!!! Cause its short! Like shoulder length I must say.. Oh why?????? Haish.... Anyway, did OFA exam and it sux big time!!!! SERIOUSLY!!! and its confirm that I'm going to fail!!!! OMG!!! I better do well in my BSE and my POA!!!!!

"Ya, Allah! Give me strength to do well in my exam..."

Hmmmm.. No words can be describe or explain.. I think that's it for today!! Im just FREAKING worried!!!!

Studies comes first

2009-08-26T18:29:00.006+08:00

This OBSESSION!!

OMG!!!!!! Its kiilng me!!!! Most of my friends have started to enroll their bikes! When will I ever start.. Some have even took half way. And Im like still NOT even in the process of enrolling the bike!!! Anyway, right now, Im at home like the usual, doing nothing while sitting infront of my CRAZY laptop updating to you guys! Hmmm.. Exam is not very far.. Infact is on this FRIDAY!!! And I need to aced my OFA or esle its consider a failure for me and my GPA will be effected!!! NO!!!! My hopes! My dreams!!!! Need to buck up no matter what!! Seriously... Im scare. My future lies in my hands! Only I can change my own fate! Haish.. What more can I say? Disappointed I am with myself. But no matter what, there is still HOPE...

Another casual Day

2009-08-26T02:08:00.004+08:00

Wiket Wiket!!!

Alright.. So here I am 2.11am doing absolutely nothing but only web caming with my pen pal Kevin(Sweetie!!) LOL!!! Hmmm.. I've known him like about a week. And I find him sweet, cute HOT! Whatever you name it! Hahahahaha! He is just so friendly to talk to.... Fun, loving, funny! Talented! What esle I could say? Simply say, he is multi talented.. Speaking of multi talented, remind me of the Multi talented guy whom I use to be close with... When will I ever talk to him? Argh!! Actually I had no idea what am I going to post today. Thanks to Kevin, I think its about him then! LOL!!!!! Too bad he lives DARN far from Singapore.... Which is Canada!! If not, I could just meet him every single day!! Which could never happen! Hahahaahahaha! Seriously, right now, I ran out of words! "So sorry Sweetie, but at least I made an effort to write about you today!!" Weeeee~!!!

Here are some photos that we took when we were absolutely bored!!!:

happy birthday atoi bestie..

2009-08-25T00:32:00.007+08:00

YESHZAA!!!!

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ATOI DEAREST!

WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN LIFE YAW! YESZHAA?

So today marks the day that atoi is 17 years old!!! Cheh! Sweet 17 seh ATOI!! Woohoo! Since green is your favourite colour, I'll post it in green today yeshzaa? So anyway, I'm currently right now, webcaming with BIRTHDAY BOY!!! Wakakakaka! And he is so happy that he cried! Awwwww.. Chillax dear friend! Today is your day! Celebrate with the ones you love aite my dear! Be happy! Don't be moody on your birthday! Its just not right!!!! Sorry I don't have any present to give you.. Hope that my sincerity wish for you is enough to brighten your day good FRIEND!!!! I Love you ATOI!!!!! Wakakaakakaka! Tc! My dear friend!!!!

ps: Sorry the pics is not the good quality ones..

At LAST~

2009-08-23T01:52:00.003+08:00

DOINKS!?

I can see that blog is returning back to normal.. And I just came back from chilllaxing! And luckily I'm back home on time if not I'll be soaking wet!!! Took alot of pictures today and I thought I wanna upload it to my laptop! The uploading was sucessful BUT to open the DAMN FILE was the worst thing ever that could happen to me.. All of my pictures, could not be open... That is what I called HORROR!! Great!

Right now as per normal, I'm just bored. Don't know what am I suppose to do.. Surprisingly, I manage to do some of my OFA. Its not homework but I practice alot.. Hehehe! Well, have to pass that exam! Or esle, its a NO~NO to poly... Anyway, I don't know why but I kept thinking about that Mr Fanaaatic! But the funny thing is, I seriously don't have a crush on him! Yes he is cute! But I don't find him as "MR RIGHT!" Cause for all I know, there is still something wrong with him!!! Hahaha! Ermmm.. Why am I talking about him in the first place? LOL!

Back to my topic! Actually, I don't have any topic right? "Ar FARK die more better!!!" My blurness have started! Before I blabber anymore nonsence, better I make a move first!!!!! Btw, here are some random pics along the way!!!!!

Miss Geeky!

Mr Nerdy!!!

DAMN~

2009-08-22T04:06:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the hidious outbreak! But blog seems to be a big issue for me..
Well, anyway, just came back home from chilling under the void deck with my friends at Woodlands! We talk alot today.. From the topic of the first day of our fasting month which is today till we talk about the past on how we celebrated the last day of our fasting month!!! Hahahahahahaha!

Alright, so its the first day of the fasting month! And damn!!!! First day of the fasting month, I can't fast.. Cause I'm having my mensuration!!! What the FCUK!!!!! Can't enjoy my fasting month!! Insane was force by me to at least fast for 3 days a week since he is going in and out of camp. only 3 days!!!! That isn't as bad for the others! So no excuse for you young man!!! While Bem and Syafiq, I think they can manage it... I just thought of fasting this whole month like in a complete set! But it seems that, this GIRLS problem which is mensuration is in the way! Goodness gracious! I hope insane and the others could wake up and "Sahur" in time... I don't know what is the translation of "Sahur" So mind that okie?

Hmmm.. I think that's about it cause my laptop is giving me nightmares!!!! Oh GOSH!!!! "Don't get spoiled lappy! Cause You're my only hope!" Till then I'll post to you guys!!!

Another delusional DAY

2009-08-21T14:29:00.003+08:00

Ar Fark!!!!!!

Such a boring day for me today! Like per normal.. I came in first then Adelyn came like sooo late.. Same goes to Azura. Can't blame Aisah! She's in SC! So she have a busy life ahead of her. I did nothing much.. Learn POA.. More writting and calculation.. Oh god! Such torture!!! Then a 10 mins break was given... But I came in at 11.10pm I guess.. Some of them take thei own sweet time.. Hahahahahahaha!!! In the end, there was no BSE! Well the lecturer did came but he was piss with the class. So he ask us to do our own things! LOL! Waste our BLOODY time! Hmmmmmm... Then waited.. and waited till like 12.45pm, then HOME SWEET HOME.....

Now Im home, Im so freaking bored.. Still planing with Syafiq and Bem.. Trying to figure out where are we going to go today.. Hahahahahahaha! Waiting for insane to book out, then our group will be complete! TM!!!! LOL! Haish.. I don't care.. Where , when or whatever! I just wanna go out.. Thus, Now its rainning heavily!!!!! FARK!!! How bad can it gets? This is such a BUMMER!!!

PS: Nothing has been progressing for the both of us.. Maybe its because I'm just not ready to talk to you.... All I need is time!

Its been long

2009-08-19T17:33:00.001+08:00

GoodNess Gracious!!!!

Seriously, its been long since I've updated my blog. I'm not quite sure why! Maybe this few weeks, or months blog seems to have a problem! And everytime I wanna update at home with all the pictures that I wanna upload, it just went jam! DAMN! I hate blogging for now. Anyway, most of the time I update my tumblr. Cause to me, its much more easier... So yeah! PEACE! If you ask me "How's life been?" Well I face lots of ups and downs along the way! But with the help of my girlfriends at my School, they were the one who cheer me up and never fails to make me laugh. Thanks girls!

Well this few days, school have been great! Especially with Aisha! We share the same eye candy! Mr FANAATIC! Wakakakakakaka! " You know, I know, public don't know right Aisha!!!" Heehs! It seems that I do have fun at school. But there are some that I really miss talking to right now. We use to joke and punch each other at times. Laugh, gossip about other people! Bully each other all the time! Hmmmm.. I don't wish to mention his name in here. Its just not apropriete. I just hope he will find out for himslef. Cause seriously, I miss the fun we had together BROTHER! That hint is clearly been shown for you.... You should know who you are.. That's IF you still read my blog.....

Right, I have to go..... Till I update another time... Try my best to update you guys frequently alright!

PS: Atoi, I can't link you right now.. Sowie! But I try my best! Blog is having some difficulties! Hope you understand! Thank you!!! *Wink!

GAGAGA~~

2009-08-05T22:26:00.004+08:00

Good Gurls Gone BaaaaD~

* Thanks for making it HAPPEN!

BoO!!!! So right now, I've got nothing to do at home.. So I decided to post to you guys something.. Wow!!! I think this whole week, I'm going to be busy.. Starting from Friday, i'm going to attend a party or something... then on sat at 12pm I think.. Going to East Coast.. Attending a friend's pit.. Then later in the afternoon gonna catch a movie!!! Woohoo!! G.I Joe!!! Promise a friend to accompany him to go shopping.. So yes, we have to follow him. Then Sunday, NAtional DAY!!! Ar FOCK!!! DIE MORE BETTER!!!! I was FORCE to wear a dress! LOL!!! I think that's it.. But all of this plan is not yet confem.... Hmmm.....

Celebrated~~~

2009-08-02T12:12:00.002+08:00

Im 18!!!

Ar at last! I post something at my blog... I'm not active at blog nowadays.. don't know why.. Hmmm Anyway, on the Friday, 31st July, Darleeeng and Sayaaang make a birthday surprise for me... It was the best Birthday EVER!!! Thank you for the both of you and also, to Fyezul, Khai, neny and ikin!!!! Thank you for the surprise! I love you guys! And also not forgetting.. THANKS FOR THE BLINDFOLD AND MAKE ME CLIMB UP A STONE OR SOMETHING... LUCKILY I DIDN'T TRIP... Hahahahahaha! Oh! And also thanks for the present! Heeehs!!!

ps: And thank you for those who wish me.... I really appreciate it! Btw, photos will be uploaded at facebook...

Lol~

2009-07-22T22:05:00.006+08:00

Meluatzzzzz!!!!

The one who was suppose to be in bed!

I know, I know!!! Its been long since I've updated! LOL! Im so busy thinking about some other things. This few days been spending times with my friends.. Hahahahaha! Oh gosh... So many things to settle, so many problems... Like friends.. who face misunderstanding.. I myself till this very day is also speechless. What am I to say? Haish!

Anyway, the other day, me, Bem, Insane, An and Ayeen went to Tan Tock Seng to visit Shafiq!! LOL!!! It was so funny! Actually, only 2 people is allow to visit the patient but it seems like our group has the most visitor.! LOL! And the nosiest one's too! The best part was, even though Shafiq was the patient, but I'm just so anxious to lie down on the bed! So KPO! hahahahaha! Stay there till 8 pm then headed to our normal hang out.. And I just found out that, that was the last that I ever see some of them again.. Haish! Who am I to judge!

Somehow... I'm just not looking forward for my birthday!

Hmmmm.. Lazy as usual.

2009-07-17T15:39:00.003+08:00

Nani???

Great!!!! How long I haven't post my blog, I also don't know.. So its like been how many days I've been thinking alot.. And my brains hurt.. But what can I do? But to face the misery that I have to face to overcome my life.. Trying my best to cope with life. Haish.. I've also been wondering why humans must face problems? Why can't any human being, live happily for life? Haish. Confusion, hatred, sad, insane, happy? I myself don't know how to describe the feeling I'm feeling right now.. Its all mix up.. But one thing for sure, I'm not ALONE! I have my SaaaYaaang, DaarLeenG, Adelyn, Aisha, Azura and many others.... They were the helping hand when I'm down... And I miss the times that I have fun with every single one.. I just want my life back! 'm just losing hoe right now... haish... Critical decisions, I have to make.. what's more? Th mystery is still pending..

I didn't mean to do it...

2009-07-14T11:27:00.002+08:00

Die More Better!!!

Its like ages since I post blog.. I've been in a situation which is darn complicated to explain. And will always occur to me during my upcoming Birthday!! And I just don't feel like celebrating my birthday! What happen the ending of month till now... I myself, don't know how to explain my situation.. Well for you guys info, I broke up with Barak again.... But this time its for real. Yeah I know I keep saying that for like a lot of times right... Haish...I don't know how to brace myself. I only hope that my friends could push me harder and I can prove the rest that I can make it..

Just now, I met Adham.. Sayaaang's Lovable Brother.... Right now, from where I see, he is in poly when actually he used to be in ITE.. Another example my used to be God Bro.. Hafiz Hussein.. He also use to be in ITE.. But now he is schooling at Republic poly.. Almost all of them make it to poly.. If they can make it.. Then I can too... By the way, actually, I kinda miss Apit!!!! He was the one who usually console of my well being... Everything that I used to own is now been taken away.. And I have to start all the way from 0.. Seriously I don't mind.. Cause from there, I've learn my mistake and never to repeat it.. Thus, I can learn to be independent! From 0, I can still make out of something. And NOBODY CAN BRING ME DOWN!!!

Thunder Srtike!!!!!

2009-07-07T22:49:00.003+08:00

FOOOK!!!

Its been sometime since I post something at my blog.. Just can't be bothered.. Didn't come to school just now. Been thinking a lot, till I got a fever! Oh gosh! I don't know how can I cope with life! Been irritated by somebody, can't tell who.. Trying to find peace at mind! I just want to be happy ALONE! Yes I may be selfish! ARGHHH... I just don't know! I just want to lead MY OWN life and change for the better.. Slowly, surely I can make it! I can't expect people to make decision for me. That's just wrong! Might as well that person control my body while my soul rest in peace! I can never find peace when things happen so suddenly.. You guys may not understand what the hell I'm blabbering about but.... Only certain people may understand.. trying to avoid all problem but it seems that one by one keep coming.. Haish!

Birthday bash~

2009-07-01T17:23:00.004+08:00

ABES! ABES!

YEAH!!!!! Its the month of July!!! Wooohooo!!!! I'm loving it! So its ike less then one month till my birthday. And my sister's birthday falls on the 14 July.. Still thinking what should I get for her. My brains are going to CRACK any moment. Anyway, school is going to reopen soon. And I can't wait to meet my CRIBS!! SE I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! And Tomorrow, I'm going to Sentosa with SE! Can't wait..... K gtg!!!

FEVER

2009-06-29T16:11:00.005+08:00

MIKE KEZAOUSSKI!

Like per normal... I'm bored. Nothing esle to do but to rot at home! Trying my best to find something to do at home... Usual routine at home starting from 6.30pm, I watch Something, something defender... then at 7pm, there is pokemon diamond and pearl while at & 7.30pm, Speed Racer!!!! That's my favourite for the time being!!! All at the same Channel OKTO!!! Anyway, I'm kinda fed up with my laptop this few days cause there is no connection in my house! TERRIBLE!!!!! Haish!!! And now, i'm lost of words.. Update you guys soon!!!!

My Holidays is a living Nightmare~~

2009-06-27T19:07:00.003+08:00

HoooooWaah!

BORED! BORED! BORED! I'm in my nightmare!!! Somebody wake me up! I tell you guys one thing! This is the WORST HOLIDAY ever I came across with! I can't stand it anymore! I miss my SE!! I wanna go back to class may I? Yes, I can't wake up at 2 plus anymore neither I can go out with my sister's friends no more! But seriously, can't tolerate this kind of holidays no more! The BBQ class outing was cancel cause Auntie Jo thinks that it is not well planned... BABA is in his own world. And I only go out with my sister's friend like once in a blue moon! I need money desperately and I need to find a job ASAP... I can't sit at home and do nothing! I just feel myself like hopeless!!! Oh gosh!! I need a wake up call! LIKE NOW!!!!

Change my skins again~

2009-06-25T17:39:00.002+08:00

Done It Again!!

So again I change my skins! This time!!! Thanks to Nur Dinah Aqilah Bte Supaad!!! She manage to help me do it!! At last! Happy as I am!!!!! Ermmmm..... So hard to change blogskins.. not like tumblr.... Alright! See ya!!!

My new Blogskin~

2009-06-24T23:08:00.002+08:00

HoooRaaay!!!!

I'm really happy today cause I just learn how to change my own skins! Lame right? I know!!! But still it took me so long to create this blog... Oh gosh!!! Can't believe that I can still do it some how! This is the first time that I did it myself... Trying to ask help from my cuzzy Dinah, but she is USELESS!!! But nevertheless, I manage to do it!!! YEAH!!!

your love is so good to be true~

2009-06-22T14:52:00.005+08:00

Testing 1, 2!!

Today marks the first day that I try on with my new HP scanner! Quite cool! For the time being I will try my best to scan my baby picture... Wakakakakkakakaka! Hmmm.... Actually for the first time i use this scanner, its quite irritating you know... Cause I don't understand one single thing.. After giving a few try.. I manage to scan it.. (K lina your post is getting lame!!) Since, I'm scanning my old photos, I did manage to scan somebody's bike.. From past to present... We do it that way aite? Let's start!

PAST:

I think my mom make funny faces that I laugh I guess??

OH! My baby brother.. When he was still short.. And we look alike!

"Merah n.o 1!!" Baba Bonch's red bike.. (TZM)
Old memories when I was his pillant on that bike!

PRESENT:

The present me! Longer hair... Nothing much!

Oh my brother! Grown taller.. Very TALL! But we still look alike! =)

Ah... BABA bonch's new bike! Scrambler!!! (KTM)

But one problem.. I cannot be his pillant anymore! He took out the foot rash!

But My baby is coming soon........

I want the pictures~~~

2009-06-21T16:59:00.005+08:00

Celebrated BIEEEEEEL's Birthday!

Ahhhaaaq!!!!!!! So the plan went well to celebrate Darleeeng's birthday... Mission Accomplished!!! It was dead fun! I tell you.... But not at first.. Cause I told the HUNKS to at least reach b4 me and Mira arrive.. But still, Me and Mira reach there first! Oh god! The sun is shinning so brightly at the esplanade rooftop.. Only god knows how we feel... BABA Bonch came in late... Cause he have to take something from his friends! Oh gosh.... The hunks were supposed to reach first before the birthday gurl comes.. But one manage to pull through... And its HILMI!!!!!!!!! Woohoo!!!! He was the only guy that survived that tremendous sunlight! While An and Slay was late.... The next guy that arrived was An... Obviously Slay was the last person to arrive.. He arrived then BABA BONCH also arrive and the best part was, both of them were like wearing red...

We went to PARAGON to wait for Mira's friend... Then we proceed to Far East!! We were like starving!!! Everybody was satisfy with the food except for AN!!! Wakakakakakka! He told us that the food taste horrible... Oh gosh!!! Then lastly, we went to chill at marina keppel Bay while Mira and her friend, went back home and Biel's best Buddy, MAHADI, went home too.. So it was left me, baba bonch, slay, hilmi, an, Biel and Ikin who was the last one standing!!! Enjoyed ourselves there.. Around 12, we send ikin, then Biel, then An.... WAIT!!!! Before BABA send those 2.. Slay show BABA where else that BABA could play at.. With his beautiful bike SCRAMBLER.... Waiting for me to have one!!!!! 31st July 2009... I wonder what would it bring?

Ps: Thanks HUNKS for attending Biel's birthday!! Although you guys like know her for the 2nd time except for Slay.... Yup2!!!! Thanks once again!!!! You guys make her day even better!!!

Eat Eat Eat???

2009-06-17T20:22:00.003+08:00

Munch Munch!!!

Seriously I could just choke to death!!! I keep eating the whole day!!! My mom make this chocolate "fondue"to dip it with varieties of fruit.... Then make pancakes at 7pm! WTH!!!! Pancakes are suppose to be for breakfast! Ok, ignore that.. Then she make Chicken beef steak!!! Freaking hell make my saliva drop! What do you expect! OF COURSE I ATE MY CHICKEN BEEF STEAK! Usually if my mom is in a good mood, she will cook all the delicious food that she can manage to cook. "Mom" What else can I say.. Anyway, right now, I'm freaking bored, like per normal.. Can't think of anything to do in the house.. I've done my part by doing the housework while my siblings have not! Let them be.. Cause most of the time, they were the one who got the scolding.., My sister is still in her lala land sleeping soundly.. Maybe I should disturb her beauty sleep later.. My brother, he went to dance practice or what.. But who the HELL CARES! He is totally lost in his own world! Correction: He is lost in his own dimension! He and his new clique!

What else is there to post? Oh yes!!!!! Baba Bonch is working like mad... Usually I'll talk to him at night but he always come home late so SAYONARA!!!! (Ignore that!) We do keep fighting but we manage to cool it down real fast! Right now, I'm starting to get lazy to type anything already.. So I stop here okie????

When everything is going to be alright~

2009-06-16T23:32:00.004+08:00

Dum Dum!!!!!

Its the holidays!!!!!!! I'm Freaking bored at home! Surprisingly, I miss school and even my classmates.. I'm not sure what I'm doing at home.. But mostly I think I spend most of the time playing DOGGIE DASH or reading my NEW MOON! Till now, I haven't went out with anybody except meeting my BABA BONCH! Anyway, hoping that this coming 24th June-26th June, there will be a chalet.. I think that's my only outing for my holidays... Oh yes... My DARLEEENG's birthday is in 3 days time... Woohoo!!!1 can't wait to surprise her.. and not forgetting the meeting that my group is gonna held.. Still not sure when.. But I seriously want to get this done with!!!!

Currently chatting at msn with AUNTY JOEY, AUNTY MOO, and my AUNTY HUDA!! She still my aunt cause she is a sister to Moo!!! Anyway, we are discussing about the upcoming chalet.. Checking whether the chalet is available or not.. And good enough there is!!! Hoping that DIDI BESTIE will book the chalet as soon as possible.. WE WANT CHALET!!!!!!!! And yes, I'm also hoping that the chalet will be like 3d2n! Oh pls make it happen! Cause there is still slots available.. Haish! Now days the guys are like lost in their world.. Hardly updating their blogs especially BROTHER HILMI!!! I just hope that they won't ignore me.. I'm getting sleepy already! I think I call it a day for now!!!!

Ohhhhh... Do I have to post the pics?

2009-06-15T20:41:00.005+08:00

Yargh Yargh!!!

I just came back from the chalet like two days back.. And I'm just lazy to post the pics.. Anybody who would like to see, just either see it from my phone or go to my facebook straight.. I'm tired of uploading the pictures at my blog.. Too tired.. Well my family chalet when in great! Got lots of games and even prizes to be won.. But I'm just the judge.. Who is organising the game alongside with my uncle.. Enough about the chalet cause the chalet wasn't that exciting... Its just average..

Anyway, I've been thinking lately about myself and what I've done.. I think I just make the wrong move!!!! And I'm hoping that I can talk things out.. Gosh... I need advice.. Somebody help? Alright till here I'll post about today.. Cause I'm thinking on what am I to say.............
PONDERING......... That's what An usually say to me.. Speaking bout An, i miss my Brothers and BF!!!!! Where are you guys? Still thinking whether wanna come for Hisham's chalet or not...

Being Happy Go Lucky~~

2009-06-11T12:58:00.003+08:00

Boring LAR!!!

Oh my God!!!!!! Freaking hell!!! I'm seriously bored like "Whatever!!"(Ignore those words!) Anyway I think by now.. My whole family is thinking on what to perform.. and that includes my MOTHER(Datin Junaidah) and FATHER(OLAN!) And also my sister.. I'm not sure whether my littler brother is following.. And as for me, Hell YEAH I'm following! Can't missed a thing cause I'm gonna be the JUDGE! I don't have to think up of anything to perform on that day.. WOHOO!!! SWEET ESCAPE! Anyway, yesterday after doing halfway of the project, Azura had to leave cause her grandfather was admitted at the hospital. So it was left me, Aisha, Adelyn and Faz! Our brains were like half dead and everybody is like so blur and clueless =) Around 4 o'clock we went off.. Since I'm the only one who brought the laptop thanks to AISHA! We decided to go to 201 to continue doing! Well we excuse FAZ cause it was her birthday and I think her outside friend would definitely want to celebrate her birthday!

Reach 201. Everybody was there except for Tai kong's family.. I think they went out or something. I'm not sure.. So we find a place to sit and started doing..

5 Minutes: I'm starting to get Bored.. Disturbed everyone and I mean Every single one..
10 Minutes: Check on what Adelyn and Aisha were doing.
30 Minutes later: Took photo with Moo and the rest.. Leaving Adelyn and Aisha doing the Work! (I'm so cruel!)
45 Minutes later: Me and Aisha started complaining on how tired and sleepy we are! Don't ask about Adelyn! She is in her own world!!!
50 Minutes later: 3 of us were really blur like SOTONG! Nothing goes inside the Brain!
1 Hour Later: I started to complain about my stomach.. (Nk terberry SIOL!) Meaning I need to shit!
1 Hour and 10Minutes: Adelyn started to scold me with Vulgarities cause she is infected too! (Nk TerBERRY!)
1Hour and 20Minutes: Every body started to growl like animals and making noise at 201 like barbarians!
1 hour and 30Minutes: Aisha keep saying *PEPEK! To me and Adelyn! (meaning, girls private part!)
1Hour and 35Minutes: I started to make faces cause I can't take it anymore!!!
Almost 2 hours: I pester them to go home!!!!! CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

Because of me and Adelyn who wanted to shit badly, we went back home.. When we reach the MRT, we went our separate ways... Me on the other hand met my GOD BRO Khai.. Since he work at Jurong East, we went back together and catch things up... I got so many things to talk about but it seems that I have to alight first.. So I didn't manage to finish talking to him.. Seriously, I miss BRO KHAI and BRO WAWAN badly!!! When are we going to meet BROW~

OFA OFA~~~

2009-06-10T15:33:00.002+08:00

DiDi DiDi!!!!

Haluha!!!! I'm sitting in class right now beside my girls thinking about our project that is suppose to be finish by tomorrow I think.. And still, we are still thinking on which picture to put as background! Oh my goodness! Can't decide..the rest already left the class and is at 201 already! So today at school we did nothing much for lesson.. Most of the time are like free period while the rest of the class got YMCA.. While me and some of my classmates celebrate Faz birthday at IMM ate long John and all!!! Great Fun! Some couldn't make it! And Some are JUST PLAIN LAZY!!! Haish.... No comments for them. I'm actually quite happy today! I'm like myself nowdays.. And it feels good!!! Pictures, I'll post later... Need to go already!!!!!

Btw, and I think although we still in conflict, I feel that its nice to talk to you back! Its been like so long since we chatted.. And we laugh at each other jokes and stuff! I really miss the 5 of us!!!! I'm just glad that we are back to normal.. Hope so!!! Friends Forever!!!!! (I think you know who you are!!!)

Forgot Something!

2009-06-09T17:36:00.004+08:00

WAIT!!!!!

Before I end my post for today, I want to post about yesterday what truly happen in class... Like per normal, we had our C.O.B lesson... And Aunty Jo ask Helmi and Faz to act some weird reaction.. Both were great actor and actress! Well obviously both were very silly and weird! Can't blame them! Wakakakakakaka! Oh gosh! Took some pictures in class along the way while aunty Jo was explaining to class.. (GEREK Or What!!!) Very rebellious huh!!! Alright, after class, skipping all the way till the end of lesson.. Like per normal when to chill at 201. Waited for Faz, Lina, Aini(BABY), Seri and the rest who I forgotten their names so sowie for My STM(Shorten Memory) problem.. Then we played Forfeit!!! FUNNNY!!! All of them get to do disgusted things.. Like Hilmi have to lick the wall, while Aini have to kiss her slippers and An have to kiss the floor... And obviously me, gets the worst one.. I have to grind on somebody! Don't wanna mention!!!! Cause its disgusting enough for me to explain.. But seriosly overall, we really did have fun!!! Wakakakakakakakaka! Hmmmm.... I think that's it.. Yes, I didn't forget about the guys who took the picture just now!!! Later they will complain to me and BLA BLA BLA BLA!!!!

That's plain cute!!!

You don't have to show that bloody face of yours!!!

Distracted!

Not concentrating!!!

Step only.. When actually they all pose already!!!

Mummy Sim YEE!!

Damn Bored like per normal~

2009-06-09T10:06:00.003+08:00

Touch me, Touch Me!!!

Incredibly I survive this week trauma!(Ignore me saying this! Just testing my English! Wakakakaka!) Anyway, I'm in OFA class like per normal. Usually if I'm bored like hell, yeah, I will update at school instead of HOME SWEET HOME which the reception is much more faster than the school com. My goodness! I think something is terribly wrong with me.. Hmmm.. I was suppose to finish assignment 1 but I didn't cause I was too busy blogging right now... Hahahahahahaha! Don't understand one thing. Need Faz help but she is also busy with her assignment. She is also confused... Hmmm.. Seriously I don't know what to update today.. Just feeling kinda random today.. So I just randomly past by... Speaking of which, I can't wait for this Friday!!!! CHALET!!!! My family have came out with a family gathering at Changi Chalet or something and it falls on Friday!!!! And I have to rush from school all the way to Changi.. With my prepaid which is running low, How the hell am I to contact my parents when I reach there... They expect me to know where the chalet will be held.. I think I would be lost like a few hours, then days... By the time i reach the chalet, everybody will start packing the bag! (LAME!!!) Alright I think I'm starting to blabber nonsense!!! Can't stand the BOREDNESS!!!!!!!

Some things are just misunderstood

2009-06-05T15:46:00.003+08:00

Shout Out Loud!!!!

So right now I'm sitting at 201 thinking on how should I face this kind of situation.. Seriously, this is childish! I don't understand why must people think that I'm the hypocrite! Well seriously... This one for you...

Right now I so call know why you are avoiding me and be mad at me... But to tell you the truth since you wanna know it so much, I tell you.. Firstly, I'm not the one who go around the class spreading rumors about you.. Please I'm 18 this year and you already 18.. You should know better! I don't go around and tell people that you are a BITCH or SLUT! Cause that is just plain rubbish. If I go round and tell people like that, don't you think that people will hate me more? Further more I'm also not the one who hypnotise them to not liking you.. They were the one who told me that they don't like you.. I'm just there with an open ears to just listen.. And about that guy... That is a different story.. I know I may make a mistake to you by avoiding you.. But now, I change my ways cause there is no point of fighting about this matter.. So I just put the matter to rest. I don't want to fight cause we are the same class.. If you really think that I'm in the wrong, so be it! But now, why must you make things worst by showing attitude to me...

Think girl! I'm trying to make the situation better but you're not helping! Instead, you show your attitude face! What's this.. I thought you are matured! But after this incident which just took place, you proved me wrong! Then after that, I heard that you wanna *_____* me.. You should know what I mean! What the hell! So that I realise my mistake? But did you know why certain of our classmate don't like you? Try some soul searching instead of blaming others.. I may not know you very well! But you should jolly well know yourself better.. Think before you speak or act! don't be the typical *________*. And if you wanna table talk to me.. Then you jolly well do it.. Cause I had enough! And I think that you are too.. I wanna end this once and for all!!!

My NEW LIFE!!!

2009-06-04T01:01:00.010+08:00

Scream Out Loud!!!

Actually I wanted to update the other day which happen to me and my brother and my 2 bestie!!! But I got no time.. Sorie guys to keep you waiting.. So the other day I had my BSE exam and it sucks big time... Haish.. Manage to do only a few ques.. Anyway Mom just bought me a new laptop from my uncle.. Consider its like second hand. So I thought that the laptop would probably contain some scratches or what so ever.. And When the labtop arrive.. It look totally brand new!!! Wow!!! That is so fun!!!! Thank you uncle...!!! Alright, the other day its like so funny! Hilmi(Bro), Didi(Bestie) and An(Bestie) did something funny.. Actually it was meant for somebody! Sorry for the poor video which I'm going to upload later cause you guys have to tilt your head cause I somehow can't rotate the video! Well you guys enjoy the pics alright.. Then lastly then you guys watch the video! Its a must Watch alright!!!! MOO!!!! This one's for YOU!!!!

Tai Kong!!!!!(The oldest in the Family!)

Adelyn,Mummy and aunty Joey!

Actually I don't know which side he is cause Mummy says that's not my Daddy!

"Moo! I love you!!" "Wah Chialat!! DIDI DON"T JUMP!"

My Tai kong And Ah kong! (Like family portrait sia!)

When Family comes together!

Happy FAMILY!!!

I like!!!!! (DIDI-DIDI!) Ermmmm... No comments?

My Dayus Brother Hilmi! And of course the UGLY ME!

PS: Moo... Cheer up!!!!! We got our gundus to cheer you up! Forget about " Dier gemok, pendek, muke dier cm alien!!!" Wakakakakakaka! Its stands for "He's Short, fat and his face is like alien.." I translate cause later mummy read my blog and say this " Ehk, channel 5 leh..."

Not Satisfy~

2009-06-02T20:39:00.004+08:00

So I lose contact with these 2 HUNKY BROTHERS of mine! Cause one of them was married.. While the other one just busy with his new life! Actually my 2nd brother was in the same school as me.. But it seems like I hardly see him.. The school is not that big anyway. So yeah.. You guys must be wondering why I'm posting about them today right? Well recently, God Brother Khai contacted me a few weeks back and we were like catching up with life.. By the way, he even told me that Ain is pregnant, 2 months!!!! I'm so happy for him!!! He is going to be a father! Cool huh!!!! Anyway we plan to meet the 4 of us again... Just to catch up with life or even held an outing or something..... But I'm not quite sure when.. Oh GOSH! Speaking of which, I haven't even study for my BSE yet... Alright guys.. I stop here.. And update you guys later...

When BOREDOM STRIKE~

2009-06-02T15:42:00.002+08:00

GRRRR!!!!!

Right now, I'm in my Business Environment class.. While Mr. Sunny Chiow is explaining at the front.. As per normal Can't pay any attention cause his talks are so boring!!!! Get me out of here!!!! My goodness.. Like more than half of my classmates are doing their own things.. Some are playing Counter Strike, some are playing Warcraft and some are just dancing! Haish! Its not that I don't want to pay any attention, but its freaking bored. Tomorrow will be BSE exam.. My first paper. And I need to study hard for this.. Memorise and Understand! Yup! That is what I should do! Don't know what I should post about today.... My classmate, SE its been 1 month plus since I know them.... Well they are just a crazy bunch of kids who love to have fun! But seriously, they are fun to be with! With the bonding that we had, plz JENN FOO! Don't' separate the Bond that we had already build! Cause this determines our future..(Really meh?) Hahahahahahaha! I'm starting to blabber nonsense.

Anyway, I really hope that we will be back together again soon.. But I really need to be patient for how long I myself don't know... Its up to me and Him to decide! Cause seriously, I really love him to the max! I won't let go somebody like him.. And YES!!! I have to understand that BITCH and Him are just friends! Yes I know you guys are "GOOD FRIENDS!" But Sorry... I still can't accept it... I still need sometime and so as you... Let's just put this matter to rest first. Then we'll wait for a few months.. And see how it goes! Really looking forward to meet him! Cause I just miss him DAMN MUCH!!!!!!

That's the End of Us?

2009-05-30T18:06:00.003+08:00

Yes! Today its about you again... So our 2 years 3 months 9 days of our Relationship just ended today, 30 May 2009 at 4.23 pm. That's the day I will always remember! I didn't expect that our relationship would really end just like that! Guess that I'm not strong enough to hold it! I know that I didn't get to say it out loud just now. Maybe I should say it right here, right now! I'm SORRY!!!! But even the these words are useless right now! Its too late.. There's nothing we could do now. I know sometimes I could be very idiotic, say those words which I don't really mean it. Right now, I know that you are somewhere thinking about me! Well let me tell you that right now.. I'm thinking of you! There are so many things that I wanted to say to you. But I guess you leave me speechless... Barak, YOU ARE A VERY GOOD GUY! There's not even one time that you disrespected me... You are a true Gentlemen! Every word, every saying that you told me, its all true! Haish! I just hope that you will take very good Care of yourself! Don't be a stupid maniac like me k! I know you deserve someone better than me! But Seriously, I still love you!!!!!! I just can't let you go..... I still want you!

PS: How can I MOVE ON when I'M STILL IN LOVE YOU!!!!! (GOD!!!!! If you listening to me right now, Please take good care of Muhd Mubarak Bin Rajali for me!) Hope you find someone better Mubarak! I'm just hoping that you will come back to me!!!!!

From time to time~

2009-05-28T20:43:00.008+08:00

Dunks!!!

So, I ran out of words... And today is my 2nd post I guess.Cause I'm freaking bored at home! Waiting For Baba and Din to clear their stuff first! Actually, seriously, I don't know what to type. So I let the pictures do the talking! Since I'm missing Baba right now, let me pose some pictures for you guys that were not meant to see... I think this pictures were like from 2 years ago??? Yes I'm risking my dignity here! So I hope you guys won't laugh alright!!!! Here goes......

Seriously no comment!

His short hair that I miss!!!

Wow! This is when we were BestFriends!

I sacrifice my ugly face just to take his nice and cute Pictures!

First time Pki Cekak!

My first time wearing all Black and very dull t-shirt to town! (Embarrassing!)

Actually he is asleep!

Our first bought together slippers!

Happy Anniversary baby!

Our first see Kallang Race!

Keeping Track~

2009-05-28T13:11:00.004+08:00

Huuuuuu Weeeee!!!

Right now I'm just being random! I'm bored like hell! OFA, There's nothing much! Cause I already finish my test! Woohoo!!!! Did just fine! Hmmmm... Today, I realise a lot of things! Many of my classmates are facing major Breakdown!!! Everything happen instantly. But when it comes to class, everybody try to act as per normal. Being Happy, and trying to put a fake smile! I don't wish to mention any of their names. Cause its quite embarrassing. Anyway all I could do is to make them happy. Give them a good advice and just be a good listener. I love every single one in SE! Yes!!!! Every human beings surely would have their own problems! There is no such person in this world who doesn't face any problems! I just hope everything would be okie for them!!!!

PS: Doesn't mean that you guys can hide it... Doesn't mean that one day, the whole world would not knows it! Trust me on that!

Friendship Bonds~

2009-05-25T19:17:00.006+08:00

Doodoot!!!

I'm here again with another story for me to post.. After I read Aisha's blog, I would also like to post about friendship today. So after spending 2 months plus at class SE located at ITE Clementi, I notice some changes in some of us.. In the middle, there are some misunderstanding and communication going on.. But I think right now we are back as per normal. I don't wish to fight with anyone, anymore! I JUST HAD ENOUGH OF FIGHTING with my previous classmates! And I would like SE to be special and extra ordinary.. I treat you guys like my 2nd or should I say 3rd family!(If I say 2nd, where I wanna put my Baba?) Anyway, I too notice something.. I'm not getting any closer to you... YES YOU! You should know who I'm talking about!

Well I'll tell you straight! Its not that I'm avoiding you or anything.. Its just that I find that you are slowly changing after you've cut your hair! (I know it sounds weird right?) You are not the BESTIE that I use to know. I know I may cruel by avoiding you just like that and by not telling! But I want you to realise it on your own. I don't want to tell you cause I'm not your mother OBVIOUSLY right? Who am I to tell you to change? Its up to you.. Its your life! I don't wish to hurt you! Cause You and Didi are very special to me! (And yes, Biel, Mira, Adelyn, Faz, Aisha and Azura are special to me too ok?) You guys are like my light of hope! I'm not choosing sides or anything.

I also know that I've shouldn't do this to you cause it's just plain rude! I know that I'm a nobody in that school. And you too know that I like to disturb you the most! And right now I hardly share problems with you nor you share your problems to me.. We're drifting.. Drifting further.. Like I said before, I treasure our friendship! And I don't wish to lose that friendship that we had! I know and you know it too!!!! I miss calling you Doodoot! And saying this phrase all the time "Ye ke?" "Ye kere!" "Ye kura2!" "Wahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!" I don't want this to end like that! Do you?

Another Casual Day...

2009-05-24T12:27:00.005+08:00

Hey Ho!!!

So I didn't manage to post the 2nd post... Well I reach home like 4 plus in the morning... So here's the story goes. On the Sat the 23rd, I had an outing with Baba, Helmi, Slay, Didi, Mas and An... Altogether there are 7 people, squeeze inside a mini van which look almost like a mini Cooper(DarLeeeeng's fav car!) but just a bit bigger. Anyway, at first, the plan was to go and catch a movie, "Angels and Demons!" or "Night At The Museum 2!" But end up all didn't want to watch cause they were very lazy!!! "Bloody Hell All Of You!"(Gosh! Miss another great movie!!!) So we went to eat at mkn Syiok at Jurong West I guess. Then head straight to Henderson Wave! When we reach there, we were freaking tired!!! Baba had to pushed me all the way up! Quite tiring..

Chill all the way.... Play taiti, (Won several rounds!!!! Woohoooo!) Smoke till we drop and just plain LEPAK! Around 10.30pm, we went straight to the van...Then send something to that AB NOXIOUS BITCH!!!(Trying to find Reason just to see Baba!) Arghhh! Don't want to tok abt that! Just make my blood pressure go up! And yeah, send Helmi cause Helmi can't be back late.. Then went To pasir Ris to send Slay. This guy also another idiot! He is not going home cause he was going to continue Lepak with his friend! Might as well ask his friend to pick him up at somewhere nearer then pasir ris!!!! In the end, Baba send the rest home.. Then meet Din, ice, Slay and his friend Dayah at Kallang Waterfront!!! Wakakakakakakaka! Play Race all the way... Play this game till sian!!!!! Then at 3.50 I guess, we went back home!!!! We ll that's all folks!

No comments!

Muke tk perlu sak!!!

Helmi and me!

Shit Happens!

Being indulge..

2009-05-23T10:31:00.003+08:00

Scrap!

So its 10.31am right now and usually I will still be at my bed sleeping soundly. Maybe I slept too early yesterday.. Oh yaa!!!!! Lots of apologies to Helmi!!! I didn't reply your msg as I was asleep soundly... So sorry dude! So today, Helmi wanted to go out cause he is freaking bored at home! And I just finish fighting with Baba..(We keep fighting all the time!) I'm still planning where to go.. Thinking that we should go and catch a movie first then find somewhere to go eat and lastly "Lepak!" Helmi just told me that he can't be home late! Hmmmm! Maybe something turn up..

But all the plan won't work cause all of us have to wait for Baba to return home from his work! I'm still sleepy... And I'm lazy to upload any photos! So sorie! I just can't think anything else....
I think I'll have to wait for my 2nd post for the day. IF there is a 2nd post!